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March 13 2010 Lake Tahoe

2010-03-13T13:40:00.000+08:00

We started our journey at 8am after breakfast without realizing that it took at least 5 hrs to reach Lake Tahoe. We went ton 2 cars, and myself I am driving a Mitsubishi Galant 2.8.. well it is a gas guzzler damn.. The other guys were in a Hyundai Elantra.

We stop by a few places and lay by areas with wind mills.. They generates electricity for the Golden County here in California. 3 More days is my 26th birthday. This is the first time i celebrated alone..

There are 6 good friends that were along with us in the trip.

Snow in Lake Tahoe-I will come again during Summer. Lets plan...
5 Hours Drive isn't that far anyway.

This is the best shot and the one I love most. I will cherish this photo not only now but when i get older. These guys look great isn't it....

March 7 2010 - Santa Cruz

2010-03-07T10:50:00.001+08:00

Some of the guys manage to find this secluded area and here we go; the Mystery Spot - one of the world's wonder near our neighborhood.. Cool isn't... I am a little lazy to explain what the hell is this but lets see what we have here.

We arrived early at about 11am. It was still winter therefore the weather in the shade is pretty cold.. Cooler than being in Cameron of Genting..

At 5 dollars entrance fees entitled us to a short briefing by the Ranger on duty on the History & some background on the place we are visiting.. It is basically a guided tours...

We waste no time later but to go to the beach. Santa Cruz is located at the shoreline of the Pacific Ocean. It was a sunny days and we thought we could catch a glimpse of hot chicks. There is a nude beach here too and you know we can see many things there.... Hehehe...

We somehow end up being in the wrong place.. The Santa Cruz beach Boardwalk seems to be more promising place to be that peeping some hot chicks...
Perhaps god is being kind to us as he may want to avoid us from peeping some old and sluggish old grandma instead of hot chicks.. I think it make sense. He therefore never make it to the nude beach as claim by many to be good...
This trip definitely serve as an eye opener and increase my passion and enthusiasm to explore more of California.

Next Trip : Lake Tahoe, California/Nevada

March 6 2010 - San Francisco

2010-03-07T01:53:00.001+08:00

My Impression of San Francisco initially is that it is a metropolitan with high rise earthquake retrofitted building but.... the reality is, I am seeing myself standing in a town where Bruce Lee once filmed his character.. Means it feels just like being in an era when Bruce Lee is still alive.. There are lotsa old building around me and it's easily 100 years old..

Here are some of the places I visited during my first visit here in San Francisco.. I was taken around by an inpatriates from Penang too...They are the people who are showing me around the place.

This is the sea lion view, attracted a great number of visitor here in San Francisco Fisherman Wharf.

The Chinatown -
Where Chinese decedents from around the world since the Gold Rush Era in the 18th century were found most here.

The San Francisco Cable Car.

The Teochew Association in San Francisco...

St Mary Church.. If I am not mistaken..

March 3 2010 Milpitas Townplace Suites

2010-03-04T13:01:00.000+08:00

We arrived just by the noon. I have to go through the secondary check at the immigration to ensure that everything is okay. Soon we checked in to our hotel which i believe will be our "Nest". This is how it looks like. When you are given such luxuries we should be grateful. In the same time the company want us to work harder and this is the trick.....So if you drew higher salaries you may have traded it with your life, unless you are multimillionaires such as the Trump or Gates which makes money to work for them.

March 3 2010 Malaysia to United States

2010-03-03T12:32:00.000+08:00

March 3rd - marks an important day in my life. It was my first time being out of the country due to job relocation in the Silicon Valley, leaving my loves ones in Malaysia. It is for good anyway.

It is also a kick start after being dormant for so long therefore, it is an appropriate way for me to start and pen down each and every moment i have here in the state. This may be a once in a life time experience.

Working culture here is very different even though many have the idea saying that US is a country club. Things moves much faster here and multitask is the only way to deal with the pace.

We boarded Cathay Pacific from Penang International Airport on March 3 2010. Transit happened in HongKong and we took another Cathay Pacific aircraft which bound for San Francisco and here I am now.

Future posts will be Places I visited and Event I attended here in San Jose California.

2010-02-01T23:26:00.003+08:00

today one one my colleague got engaged
today i learnt that some of my colleague had a hard time before embarking themselves as an engineer.
today my colleague tell me some of the things that i have to watch out at work what to and not to do.
today i know who can we call friends and who is the enemy in the blanket.
today i have to get done with my VISAs and prep myself for the interview in another 10 hours from now.
Today i was told to think thoroughly before making any decision especially on investments or any money related deals. Safekeeping in the bank is always the best.

Feb 2 2010,i will be flying down to KL attending an interview in United States Embassy at Jalan Tun Razak. Together with me will be 4 others young and vibrant engineer which will be on board the San Jose research facilities sometime this year once our documents approved.

I do not call it a long but i do hope things will mark another turning point in my life as well as my career.

2009 : Re-Cap

2010-01-08T00:17:00.006+08:00

It has really been awhile since i visited this page or even... very very long ago since i updated the page. Year 2009 has been quite an interesting year for me. In short it has been a year full of achievements for me.
I have to pen this down before i contracted Alzheimer.

January and February of 2009

Life is rather stagnant at this point of time. We have this Graduate Leadership Program in which a group of Engineer whom been selected under this program will have to undergo 6 months of training which ends in Feb 09. Thus, as a sign of appreciation towards the resources and contribution of the company we have a Graduation to mark the end of the training.

March 2009

I had my birthday celebrated in Cameron Highlands. I wanted to be there very long ago but due to inefficiencies and the poor logistics arrangements, my trips were halted all these while and this is the only and the first time i make it up there. Fantastic and yet memorable especially when you're celebrating with someone your dearly treasure.

On the 30th of March
My Staff Engineer was not so happy with my work. Thus I have to stay up to 9pm at night to complete my assignment + Finding + Report to be sent out as a publications. I got it done and sent it out before i went home, of course with his endorsement that the report is fine.

March 31st 2009.
I have to pen down this date. This is the day that changes my whole entire working life + opportunities for career advancements.
My company MD is known to be stern and yet precise.
He was in the loop on the report that I sent out last night which i wasn't aware and to my surprise, I got a compliment from him together with 2 other Directors.
Nevertheless, some gave a bad remark on my work but that is part and parcel of life right.
The email were circulated and immediately became a profile news among engineers.
I got called up by my boss to present the materials to our counterpart in the states.

May to November 2009

After months of negotiation on the timeline and engineer coverages, I finally granted a chance to attend LeanSix Sigma Black Belt class which is applicable to engineer above 1 year of service. I am only 8 months at the time when i join the class.
This also make me one of the youngest engineer to be in and it is really an honour to me.
Within this time, i know time waits for no man, It is my nature to speed things up. I doesn't not like to procrastinate.
In the mean time i was told that we will be able to be a certified lean six sigma black belt once if we are able to complete 4 Projects with total savings of USD 1 million dollars. These are the pre requisite.
My intention initially were to get done with my projects without having to worry about it later on after i am done with my training. 4 months given to complete 4 projects which means i have to complete at least one at a month. It's a challenging + uphill task and trust me its is never easy.

Eventually my Hardwork got paid off with myself with 10 others being Certified as a Lean Six Sigma Black Belt on November 26th 2009.

On December the 1st, is my late mother's birthday and if she is still around she will turn 54.
My staff engineer came to me and told me that Boss will have a good news for you.

The next day, at about 8.30am just before the conference call with the states counterparts, i met my boss at the pantry and he broke the good news to me which he has shortlisted me to be interviewed by the VP and also the NPI DIrector in SanJose which took place 2 days later which turn out that I was selected to be assigned there for a year.

Christmas, i celebrated with ZhiLi Chong Hui Rowen and Jimmy which came down all the way from SP. The countdown part i wasn't with them as i have to go back to office to attend some issues.

2009-11-17T23:36:00.002+08:00

Working life is rather not so interesting nor bored. Being a year as an industrialist in a northern state of malaysia i truly learnt aplently.

I completed my 4months + 4 projects as the criteria for certification for my lean six sigma blackbelt.
i gain more knowledge but less friends outside due to my commitment to work throughout the year. I became an unbalanced person but i believe success came with huge sacrifices. I want to achieve and do things faster and more efficient than others and therefore i will need to accelerate my learning speed and double my efforts and commitments.

Trust is very important when comes dealing with people from the corporate.

Nevertheless, doing all above as a part of my strategy to be financially independent. I don't believe taking and following paths taken by others to be successful. Duplicating their success recipe is important. You have to follow others footsteps but you may not necessary step on their footprints.

In another 1 months we will be seeing 2010 coming into picture. I truly hope that i will have another smooth sailing years ahead. Perhaps i will need a job which has a more regular working hours with no on call and of course better pay. I used to feel that each and every cents that i earned worth a drop of blood but i started to feel numb in the same time seeing the numbers in my account grew but the same time i am in prison with work and responsibilities. I am lucky in one way and another i like what i am doing but life is always talking about a trade off. you cant garner all in your life instead choose to lose some.

I have also seen my technician came to work to earn and provide more for his families but his wife were not understanding enough scolded him for coming to work. Deep inside i understand his intention to earn few hundreds bucks more so that his family will have a better life. He came to work for night shift and it is very tiring. Such sacrifices made by a man to his family, even though it is a small thing touched my heart.

2009-09-05T20:25:00.002+08:00

These people need to know what is it like to insult others religion in Malaysia.

This is...

2009-08-08T00:57:00.003+08:00

This weekend i will be working.. New project right after i finish improve phase in Lean Six Sigma today in Inti College.
I got my bonus today. Would say its quite good.. compared to those who get less than me.. I consider myself very fortunate, the most important when you get this amount of money is to lock it somewhere - in share market or in income insurance. Lets be a little frugal now than be sorry later in future.
Working is getting more and more challenging.. Next Friday i will be in KL attending SookFuan's convocation and proceed to cameron as i need to take sometime off as well.
Lets treat it as a holiday after getting bonus and of course.... spending all is never my style...

Summary of Life

2009-06-23T23:38:00.002+08:00

I obtained a place doing postgraduate. It is a pretty interesting topic to be studied on. The dillema here is will i able to cope with it since i am working and pursuing masters in the same time. Families were encouraging me to take up the challenge since i am able to take it. If it is so i will then have to divide and rule my time and weekends will be spent doing experimental stuff and the race against the time will begin.

I knew myself well that i will never.. like to drag on things. I normally do not care how things are done as long as they yielded the result i want. This is me... Therefore being myself, networking is extremely important to me as this helps me to get things done in a faster manner.

This is when the art of being a human begins and we can see very less people that masters this art. I am among those who try to master this by first putting down the differences among human being, letting go the unforgiven nor not important past tenses but only kept those which are sweet and dearly to be remembered, be nice to your self and then to others, respect others in order for them to respect yourself and last but not least be nice not only to those who be nice to you...

Next week, i will enter the second phase of the Lean Six Sigma class. Six Sigma now is not a big deal as we already have 12 Sigma process. But having Six Sigma is better than not having any sigma. I am the second youngest in the class with all my classmates age that starts with the number 3. ( Most of them)

Friday i will be going down to Ipoh then Sungkai and then Puchong before I Utama and then Ipoh and Penang again. My brother is coming back from London on Sunday and i think i will not able to meet him since i will have to rush back to Penang.

Next weekend will be another hectic week as the Penang Heritage tour begins. Those who think or plan to join me may drop me an email. I shall see Kelantan in August.

What do you feel...

2009-06-08T23:18:00.002+08:00

When you see stocks you were invested in cliffing.. the work shit / f*** will definitely been uttered naturally
When you saw your car parked outside a shopping mall had a scratch.. long ones and what do you says? ...
When you saw other guys that look uglier than you holding a hand of a babe?
When you see opportunity in front of you but you cant take it because you are simply too junior for that?
When you see opportunity to take over a car which is damn fking slow but you have to keep it to yourself simply because your wife/your girlfriends told you not to.. WTF....

When you face all these, what you do? I don give a damn but to follow my heart but only will listen sometimes..

Doing Sales

2009-05-11T00:38:00.002+08:00

I had my first close sales experience today. Well one turn out to be hopeful - please tomorrow be a brighter day and i close it and one turn out to be very resistant and weren't come with an open mind.

Working as an engineer only deals with limited number of people also limited external factors. Today i learnt alot. Learn how to deal things in a right way. I salute those who did sales and work as a sales man. I salute those whom family had a salesperson as a breadwinner. This is a tough job and i don't know till today.

Welcoming myself abroad to a totally new and strange world. Please God help me and do wish me some very very good luck to come along with experiences i gained daily.

LIfe

2009-05-09T23:10:00.002+08:00

Life is pretty good being an engineer despite myself emerge from science background. In this month, I an engaged with new product transfer as well as product qualifications. We will see a new product coming out from WD range of product which is the hard disk in general.

By the end of this month, I am now officially, will be attending the Lean Six Sigma certification course for 4 months in Inti International College Penang. This is a once is a life time chances for me to prove myself as i will the youngest and shortest serving engineer to be granted this opportunity. I felt honoured the same time i am worried that i will not able to perform when i comes back. That is too early to worry now i guess..

Working life is challenging through out the month of May. I will have to work @ both Public holidays as well as Saturday and Sunday. Thank god we are working as a team else it will be more difficult to work independently. We have daily conference call in the noon and sometimes near to midnight. It's tiring but it's a chance to gain more experience talking to the people from the states and debating with them. Product transfer is therefore tiring.

p/s Wish i could go down to KL one day after all these finished. At least over there is someone which my time is worth to spend with.

I had submitted my Masters application last week. Hopefully the offer comes later after the heat is gone. I am now helping those people to plan for their retirement. which means they will retire rich instead of being broke..( New field to venture inTo)

2009-04-20T23:46:00.002+08:00

We had a lunch meeting with the MD today and here is where the chance we get to shoot question to him. Frankly i took and used this opportunity fully to exert information that i wanted to know as a grass root member of this media plant.

Looks like we are doing fine and works are getting attention from the people up there. This determines your career advancement as per your hardwork and not as per how popular you are. Tomorrow if nothing beats the rains, i am going to submit my application for my masters by research in USM. Parallel with that i had just got accepted in a 4 Months Lean Six Sigma Black Belt Program which i hope will bring in some light for my future career advancement.

The LSS program coordinator had raised some concern as i am still a fresh engineer and no doubt she kinda doubted that if i would able to carry my work as well as projects in the same time. For me there is nothing wrong going against the norms as chances does not always comes sniffing right on your feet so therefore, make use of it. Chances don't comes twice and you determine you life. I will never allow my life to be controlled in such except to my wife and that also perhaps i will only give in 50%. I have my stand also ma.. He He

On my way back, i gave a rid to one of a senior staff and we spoke alot on things regarding the company. Her advice is to act smart and act fast. You must know how to bring up issues. I have learnt today to tell bad news by making it a good news but infact it is a bad new, WTF... ... ... ... I also doesn't know what the hell am i talking but i know i am not heading to hell anyways...

Tomorrow, is a day full of meeting. I myself is charing 2 meeting while attending 2 as well. I considered myself very lucky as i am given plenty of opportunity to perform as well as to shine sometimes. This will not last long and soon enough i will have to come back with better ideas for the betterment of all.

*** There is a high chances I will be relocating to KL if they gave a good offer. Perhaps i have to start finding place to stay before the heat comes to me. KL is better compared to Penang simply just that my high school friend are just within the vicinity.

2009-03-11T18:57:00.003+08:00

Hey...

I finally met up with some lecturers from USM to talk on my future prospect and attachments with them. We had lunch and this time it's Prof Baharin whom bought us lunch. I first bought them lunch a month ago when i meet up with them in Jelutong Penang.

So this attachment will be lasting for 2 years with me myself required to present and carry out some work and analysis as well as some studies on natural products. It is very different and a total contrast from what i am now, the nature of my current position. I will be starting somewhere in april when i get my transcript corrected from my previous University.

Today i will attend a course on how to tune my car to make it more fuel efficient. Wanting to share but later definitely i will post some pictures on how it is being done. With the current turbocharged kit( coming its way) provided i do not go hard on my pedal, each and every penny invested will see the return of investment in perhaps 10 full tanks. This is better than nothing okay....

Things is going to be more interesting. Life definitely will be more fun. I am looking forward for Cheng Beng so that we can have another family gathering this time round.

But today my meeting with the Product Engineer and Process Group make my day even more interesting. I sometimes dunno whether is it myself doing the talking as i seem to be a very very very very very different person that what i used to be back in Uni. Yes.. I am a very outspoken person and can be "Bastarding" around well but this time i am doing exactly wht i did so well back then but with Facts. Such an improvement huh.....

T.B.C....

2009-03-08T23:33:00.002+08:00

I came across this video in youtube and guess what... well done to another stupid, assbrained and idiotic act of a uneducated moron which contribute to the list of nonsensical nonsense acts. Here you go.

If ever you got a chance to see this. The best thing to do is to pray and let them crash to beyond their own recognition. Ever since i came over to Penang which is known for it's very unique and daring driver on the road, this tops the list of my very own chart. In the end.. its so damn blardy effing stupid.

2009-02-28T21:06:00.003+08:00

2 weeks of 7 days a week work + on Standby. I am not complaining but knowing that i could sustain myself well in MNC. There has been a time where only me and my manager is around and i have to cover up my Staff Engineer for 2 days and the rest of the 2 for the rest of the 3 days.

Attending meetings without being prepared taught me that facts and figure must be at your finger tips whenever you step in to the meeting. It has been all day and no nights and my cubicle has been my second home for this 2 weeks.

When all these ended early this week, i am being sent for training on DOE in Inti International College Penang. In the same time i am assigned to follow up closely on the Graduation Ceremony of our Batch whom is due for confirmation on the 26th of February whereby the company top brass will be present and witness the ceremony. I had came out with the proposal to do video presentation as i always did since the first year of my varsity life. Thanks to the person who introduce me to this and thanks again for making me being able to develop further from there.

On the same day i got my 6months Performance Evaluation and guess what, out of all the 7 criteria graded, i scored 4 outstanding and 3 exceptional in my review. Perhaps my manager has been too generous on my review in the same time i think i earn it. You just need to have alot of patience and generate more networks for you to sustain.

**Today i got the chance to sneak out to Juru and test drive a few sports models. One of my collegue had just installed a turbo kit in his Ford Focus RS. Putting your foot on a turbo charged machine makes me to become so tiny when i get back to my old car.

2009-02-18T23:40:00.002+08:00

There will be or shall i say already a new product launching consisting of WD 2 Terabytes HDD. Myself from the media team is working hard day and night to ensure that we supply enough media to the head media operation.

We sat down and talked about new products and there where comes into the picture and also the question asked to me, "Chin, are you interested to join our team of research in the same time furthering your studies at postgraduate level"? This stunned me and made me fell aback to my seat wondering, what the hell had just happened and how the hell this happen. However this statement boosts my confidence as back in office at a mid size meeting room, i was about to get banged and shot with no mercy due to inconsistency of the system i am temporary taking care of but..... this is all work only. No other thing beats reality. If you were to get it, let it happen..

Finally it turned out to be a friendly discussion rather than sending your to "Holland" kinda session. Pheww... The bottom line is, be diplomatic to your colleagues. You need to smile alot and talk nice things. And also show respect to the elder and never be stingy to greet or even to say hi.. I am due for confirmation this coming February 26th. Lets make it happen.

** Missing some good old times back in Uni. I seems that i had forgotten all those bad ones..

2009-02-05T23:53:00.002+08:00

It has been 6 months since i first step in with many uncertainties and doubt if this is the right choice to make

it has been 5 months since i am being given my first project and completed it without compromising. I know i had done it and i got it appraised.

I had good times when times is good and bad times when the economy is bad. We are being more effective when we tighten our belts.

Hopefully 6 months from now i will be sitting in front of my texts and not my PC anymore. It is because by then it's time to proceed to another level instead of being at it is now.

Just moments ago, i got an email summoning me to present my work in Technical Sharing session with directors and MD present and I felt nothing.... Weird me.

2009 Hiking - Penang Longest Trail From Chin's Farm to Penang Hill via Laksamana Hill

2009-01-09T21:34:00.004+08:00

Well tomoro 8 of us from WD Penang, will conquer the most notorious trail in Penang. Just less than half a year I Tumpang in Penang and taken up hiking as a weekend hobby this is the second place i will be going.

Perhaps i had shown a great interest in this Outdoor activity whenever there are hiking activities though i am not in the loop those who went with me previously will call and update each other. Believing it or not from small potatoes like me there are directors who are coming along tomoro but i am not sure whether they will be there or not tomoro.

Below are some detail. It better to do some research on the place before you go. To prepare you mentally and physically. Just for example during Muka Head Hike, i got stunned to see steep slopes. Almost pengsan when see especially you are so damn low in energy.

Google Earth Picture taken from Malaysian Outdoor Forum.

2009-01-08T23:25:00.002+08:00

Things are slowing down but it seem my company is getting more and more orders. definitely we are very much concern with quality now and me and my colleague are working closely no matter what using what ever we had to reduce the number of defects and the answer is by doing STATISTICS.

Statistics is like chemistry in science. It does wonders. Things that you can't imagine or see. Talking about that, i am getting involved more in outdoor activities. Hiking is a new thing that comes in my dictionary lately.

This weekend i will be going to Chin's Farm and hike all the way from there to Penang Hill with the total distance of 12000m. Is like from where i am now to Sri Perdana. I applied for Lean Master training and i have to go through the basic training first. It has been approved and now pending my manager to sign me of. I also got tired of travelling. Working sometimes drags from early morning till the wee hours of the next day. Weekends is therefore dedicate to sleep in to recharge myself for the next day.

2009-01-06T22:39:00.002+08:00

How to write a good report?
I am so used to writing long long long things. Now i have to learn to make things simplified. Doing all these statistics makes me to flash back to those good times when i am doing my First year in Uni. I remember i hated the subject that only draws and leads me into confusions. I never like it until i had to applied it in my workplace. It is just awesome and fantastic.

My mentor ML had given me ample opportunities to practice and publish my findings. Fair enough to him i need to be a positive learner. Things is never easy here. The impact from the economy turmoil make life to be even harder. We will have to work harder to earn and there are no easy money flowing just like that in to our pocket. The company is practicing cost saving aggressively and so do I.

On today's incident, I had been ask to publish a report on DOE using 2 different statistical models. Fractional Factorial & Box Behnken. I had succesfully completed after a short discussion with my staff engineer as we need to agree on some of the content. Then i sent out and here comes the mistakes... a small but silly ones...

I therefore will have to recall emails sent quickly and i am fortunate enough that US side still sleeping therefore i am able to sent a revised copy replacing the one with errors... So the lesson learnt here is.. CHECK YOUR WORK....

It is just a decimal point difference and this makes a huge impact as it involves a big volume when we escalate it to be part of the production configuration. Pheww....

LFAR

2008-12-21T02:29:00.002+08:00

Looking for a Room

I am now looking for a place to move. I do like the current place i am staying but it is just too hectic when comes to being early to work. Being in the inter-junction between coastal highway and Jalan Sultan Azlan Shah, no doubt you get an easier access to Penang Bridge but i must be discipline enough to leave home early and get home late.

There are a few place that i am considering now which includes

Tanjung Bungah ..( Since i will be late better i stay further and enjoy life there )
Teluk Kumbar - Reverse traffic and guarantee won be late to work and can get out late.
Bayan Lepas (Krystal Villa, Sunway Tunas, Putra Place)
Batu Maung
Sungai Ara

These few days i had been cracking my head at home and in office to carefully choose and get a place to settle down once and for all. At least the new place will not end me up facing parking issues.

Please leave comment in my chat box in the event you had any good deal or place for me...

Work

2008-12-16T00:39:00.002+08:00

wORK

2008-12-16T00:39:00.001+08:00

MUKA HEAD.

2008-12-13T14:22:00.006+08:00

Venue : Muka Head
Time : 0800

Just before we start

On the way... Chiat Fong is leading the way. We are still ok and in high spirit.

At this site, we are about to enter the trail

First rest place in the whole trail

Hanging Nenas

USM Research Center. Only by foot and by sea. Cannot be accessible by road.

Muka Head Lighthouse

Lighthouse using Solar Cells Panels

From the Lighthouse

Meaningful Weekend with Career Fair Ex-Classmates, ChongHui,Zhili,Ying and ASIMO.....

2008-11-30T23:51:00.009+08:00

Job Fair Western Digital

Zhili and Me

Ying and me

Hui, Yuan and Zhili before ASIMO

Swensen's Juru During gathering

Joshua, Me, Goh and King

Me and ASIMO

2008-11-26T22:49:00.003+08:00

Looking back at my photos back in last year, i really think that i had aged a lil. I am starting to get older and older but i dunno whether am i getting wiser and wiser.
Tomorrow we will have a weekly updates with San Jose. This time i will not need to prepare anything but sooner or later i will be the focal person to communicate and update weekly progress to them. Not forgetting i had a wonderful boss and he has restlessly pushing me and get me into the loop, pumping information that i sometimes can't digest and giving me a hard time, a real hard time so to him i will be able to survive better now. I am basically working easily 12 - 16 hours a day. You do not feel you are working when you are enjoying the work you have. I feel more Apart of that, hanging out with colleague and some who are the beauties of the plant makes life to be even better. Each of us knew our bottom like and beauties lies in the eyes of the beholder. I can earn a lil better than some engineers in my plant for you have to pay the price.

To date, i think my overtime converted to time off is almost close to 2weeks and due to volume soft i prefer it to be converted into cash so that i will be able to save more for the rainy days to come.

*** Sometimes you wanna voice out some things. You just prefer to keep quiet so that the world remains peaceful.

November 2008

2008-11-25T22:48:00.005+08:00

Sing K with Chong Hui and Jimmy. I actually din sing at all

ME and Jimmy

Taking out the old part from my red car at the tire shop. Farewell to my Red Devils.
Those who were in AIMST for TQM classes will always remember how my car so call drifted at the corner back in AIMST.

I am fast but I am safe.

Visiting Toyota Cheras with my dad, overlooking some nice car models with not so much in the pocket.

My Red Devils that beats Honda Civic of Fang, and 2 others car that reaches Kem Bina Negara in Balik Pulau

Recently, received a token of appreciation from my Field Supervisor for Presenting some wired facts on Test Cells.

More Updates Coming Soon

2008-11-18T23:19:00.002+08:00

Today i would say is a breakthrough where i got a good news and a bad news in the same time. The bad news is i had some problem with my attendance in the system where it capture wrongly the time. I will have to do night support and learn new things as days to come and i am given responsibility already whereby my function is no longer as a Graduate Leader but more to as a permanent employee.

I was then called up and FMEA is the first assignment or area which i will have to take care. I will have to chair a meeting with people majority 20 years elder than me next week and i barely has the time to prepare. working in an industry demands everything you have and i have no choice but to give all out. Frankly i am tired. Infact i am very tired. I enjoy working and i do feel tired as sometimes i will have to stay late and at some lucky days even overnight there. People term this as being overwork but I am the kind who takes every opporturnity to learn seriously. Reason being i do not like to get a pep talk later which will make me sleep in the end.

When you earn you tend to spend more. I am earning good enough or perhaps a lil more than some of the fresh engineers in my company due to the allowance i secured. But the money you get is not worth if you cant be with you loves ones celebrating meaningful days where you have to work. Perhaps later i will need to fly who knows. I just got myself a better car with the old one going off permanently. Some will know the story why i purchased the car earlier. I think i need to catch some sleep as i am going back to office at 5am to attend some matter and also to prepare some materials for a conference call in the morning before attending a training in PSDC later in the day.

2008-10-31T00:54:00.002+08:00

i just came back from work. I reached my condo at 1245 sharp. Not very soon i just received a paging that require me to attend/ shall i attend a hands on characterization myself at 4am in the morning.

I just wanna tell that i am not the dull person as i am. Perhaps this is the thing that i learnt before. Anyway, moving forward is a must but i never forget my roots and those who treats me well before. I still enjoy listening to The Sweetest and Always and Forever sang by Vanessa William that brings back all the good memories and rejects the old ones.

I need to sleep now.

Memorable Weekend

2008-10-27T20:51:00.003+08:00

this weekend indeed is a long one. My grandfather has just turned 80. So we had a grand birthday party for him. Talking about my grandfather, he has been looking up upon 4 of us since we were young. Perhaps we are lack interms or parental love or he really likes us. Since primary we lived apart from our parent due to their job nature that requires them to relocate. Perhaps this makes us all stronger and more independent.

As usual, i once again become the spotlight of my uncle and auntie. From asking you where are you working until have you got a girlfriend or not. Well almost everytime this are the standard and normal procedures. I can expect infact can tailor the answer so that they will not ask the second time. They said me and my youngest brother has a similar complexion the resemble my late mother. Frankly, i dunno. But i enjoy being among them as i can felt the warmth. Something that you cannot get from friends.

I guess my red devils will be sold of. It is just a matter of time. I had posted it on mudah.com and within 3 hours i had already got a buyer who is interested with the car. Perhaps coming back to square one riding my 10 years old EX5 will not be a burden. That's how i laid my foundation before i get my car. Going back to the grassroots and appreciate the moment with what you used to do before is another feelings and joy that you never can get.

In a month or less, or maybe a week time, i will be taking over another car, an used or a brand new one from home. I haven decided to grab the new one or the old one with manual transmission as my dad is not so familiar with automatic transmission cars. He loves to have full control of his car instead of being controlled electronically. On my side, i do not have any problem. Both are fine with me. It is a bonus as not many young people like me want to drive a 23 years old car and experience breakdown, which is now no more and create wonders to people, disbelieve and thinking what is wrong with this guy still using a yet so old car. The thing here is, i do not want to burden my family. Money is not easy to earn and asking them to spend so much on an automobile is not worth until recently.

On Saturday we went for a car shopping and the intention is to let my dad stop imagining and start seeing the end product. I want him to at least not buying but sit and experience how the car felt when you are in it. It is totally different. I am a very particular person when comes to spending. Being extra careful is my advantage but consuming more time to decide is my disadvantage here. We end up choosing a variant of 1.5 liters Japanese models and a 2.4Liters Camry. Still we had not decided on which to purchase. At the eve of retiring, my dad is offered a contract position whereby he will still be working. Thus, the family needs a new car as sooner or later i will have to retire my old red devils. This is good for him and for us also.

My First Convocation (Follow Up) BSc.(Hons) Materials Technology With Management

2008-10-20T22:31:00.008+08:00

My First Convocation

2008-10-15T23:49:00.001+08:00

October 15 2008 is the day.. The day my convocation is held. Futher updates will be up very soon and i do need sometime to write after so long not writing.

Tomorrow is a boring day again as i need to go back to work. I wish i can turn the time back. Frankly i do really enjoy my degree life. It was the best time ever in my life. Thank you Angeline, Jyh Yie, Zhi Li, Rowen, Chiew Ying, Wei Sim, KK Hooi and the rest for making my day to be more memorable. I love all of you..

2008-09-22T22:55:00.002+08:00

it has been a really busy life ahead. I always reach home feeling tired and my whole body feeling like collapsing. i am just having too much fun in my work place and there are new challenges and always there are people motivating and encouraging you to strive higher. This month i suppose i am getting more than my basics. That means i am getting more to save and to invest in other things. I realise the hardship to earn and spend every single cents. You just need to think twice before you spend. Until this extend you know.....

Here i met with few japanese dudes as well as some frenchman. To adapt with their culture and thinking, first of all we need to be more mature. Mature in the sense we need to talk like an adult and not losing ourself while talking to them. I make friends with some of them namely Saito-san, who troubleshoot and assist me to find solutions, Sagata-san, who power up the software each time it is down and not to forgetm, Hani who is a borned malaysian but residing in Japan.

On some of the selected days, my manager will call me in and join the conference call with our US counterpart, San Jose, to give the latest updates and progress on our project in hand. Tomoro i will have to officially join in the meeting to present the result and the findings of our current machines which suppose to be scheduled for production later this week.

So far, i am happy with my work. I get my coffee on time and at the time i want. I can have Milo anytime. Everything is just at the pantry. I just have to take it and drink. This is life and the path i choose with i will never or cant be regretting later.

2008-09-15T01:05:00.002+08:00

I had been sleeping the whole day today and went out to queensbay for dinner. To date, working life us totally lifeless but to my surprise i do not feel the stress that much. Perhaps... my uni life had given me enough stress than what i suppose to have. In another word, preparing myself for the working life.

Recently, there are some updates on supernice and superblur. It seems that they got the job but there are so many version of stories. This makes him to become harder to believe. he even compared and scrutinized that he got a better offer than what i do. The scenario is he got a permanent position as a engineer under a department which runs on shift while i got the same permanent position which runs on normal shift under a package of graduate program. To him, he thinks that he got a better position and a more bergaya post but let me tell you idiot here, though you may not read this but letting others know your childishness may help other to know the you behind your mask.

The only difference between the Permanent and graduate programs is only at the rotation every friday. We get to learn more on others department and makes us to be a all rounder employee when comes to the end. You are right, you got a permanent position but it was a position which others do not favour. You run on shift and apparently you are actually replacng my buddy who vacate the position to join the normal shift.

To those who does not know you, i do not blame them for not knowing you. To be after 3 years, you are grilled from thetop to the bottom to me. I have no offence on peoples preferences in their sexuality but, you disgraces the gay and the straight due to your half cooked and boiled effort to imitate korean actors. In the end, creates confusions.

p/s I have a few good friends who are gays. I am a straight guy. Your kinda species who always want to WIN will end you up in trouble friend. Losers wil compare on the numbers of offers they got. Winners will kept their mouth shut and work. Why is there a rush to show how many offer you got instead you are not thinking of the consequences of you rejecting the offer and how is their impression on you towards their company in the future.

Some just don think or they think they are thinking.....

ON JOB

2008-08-28T21:02:00.002+08:00

I am having fun in fact enjoying the work i do despite being underpaid.. Well, for a Fresh Engineer from a non Engineering Background, I can consider myself to be lucky already. At this moment, this is the schedule that i will or have to face daily.. Life is kinda routine but the job pace changes very fast. It not about the money but in this company, learning is a lifelong process.

0645 Wake Up
0715 Depart to Work
0740 Reach the company's cafeteria
0800 Masuk Office check Mail
0830 Masuk Line = Most "mafan" process as need to wear like astronaut
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1200 Lunch
1230 Come back from lunch
1300 Masuk Line again
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1600 Curi curi go Yum char
1700 Settle Paperwork

My 3 days of work.. earliest i cabut is 5.30 pm while latest is 8.00 pm... welll work is no nice... I miss my class... haizzz

2008-08-25T23:59:00.002+08:00

today is my first night in penang. well i kinda miss the room that i am in before.. Cozy and comfortable. i still remember the first day we move in to our house in BLM. everything was in order until a very fine day where everything overturned. The thing that i regret in my 3 years of studies is not to mix and be have a good and trustworthy friend until i reach year 3. Thinking of it i miss alot of fun and great time. However, let bygones be bygones. I am at the top high and also at the bottom low. I had experience the time where to me friends are wonders. I had experiences time where friends to me are foes.. I had experiences where friends gave a lil hope and shine to my dull and gloomy days. I had hold the post where i am suppose to be put on a chopping board but instead i lay everyone of their heads on the chopping board waiting to be slaughtered. I had been condemed for doing something good where bad ones boosted their name skyrockets. 3 years changes many things, shattered many hope and give birth to many ties. Losing some closet allows me to gain more associates.

3 years had passes just like tat. I would say this is the hardest ever 3 years in my entire life. I wish i could forget as i could forgive well. Tuesday, Permatang Pauh by election and my first day of my stepping stone into the corporate life. I wish i could be a successful industrial person. I do not want to fail anymore. Life is never so kind. The same goes with me. Here i welcome myself to WD on 26 . 08 .08

Trips Flip Flop

2008-08-18T19:56:00.003+08:00

The idea of getting a farewell up is to actually have fun. Suria has came up with ideas and plans but no one has responded. I had came up with the plan to go to Pantai Merdeka.. Just a few hopeful souls and some who keep saying do not want to go for certain acceptable reason to me but not to others replied. In the end, what we see and what we get is totally different.

It is not a joke but a truth that technology makes us an idiot. Tell you why, a simple email with fast internet connection can be replied within seconds. Longing back to the time my dad writing love letter to my mom, i guess it too more effort than what we need now. And still people do not reply. I tell you, you all do not have a stand. You cant even understand a simple instructions. Having people sitting on the fence is hopeless. These people will later come and complain this and that which are childish and foolish acts.

In the end, it end up with just bout 10 of us and here, there are some issues on the event planning on that day. Well, i do have a Plan B in my head instead of the Pantai Merdeka one. I think i had tolerated many parties by not voicing out my unhappiness just to let things to go with the flow. But it seems that this will never happen as some like people to beg them like a kid which already shit in their pampers but feel shy to go toilet. Come on.......... It make my feel that I am still a kid doing this.

Therefore, I have then concluded that we will have the plan on despite some unsupportive parties. Degree years comes only once. So the end must be cherished well. There are no such things as i don wanna join you and i don regret. People who fail and have low EQ says that. There are some guys born with girl inside them.. I do not know who to deal with them but i can't resist to say that there are some of them are nice people.. They don sell fish and become selfish.. We are in a university and not a wet market ....

Things will be finalized tonight and the list of fun goers will be emailed and told about the event latest by Wednesday.

** I got a comment from some of my junior saying that a Japanese guy appear on the AIMST Corporate Video.. I was wondering if those who are Korean actor wanna be will be jealous or envy or nt.. Reason was simple... Korean movies had a better rating than Japanese which known to produce AV...

Lesson learnt.. Just be who you are and do not try to be WANNA BE.. Hate it... and thinking of it, i am already fuill without my dinner..

day Before Ceramics

2008-08-17T20:56:00.003+08:00

Ceramics and Glasses Tomoro

9.02 pm

Called Goh and he is installing is Prelude Bucket seat in his B16A Civic 96. Myself reading chapter 3. Start to spot questions. I cant really study at home due to the extremely fast internet connection. Whats is Freeze Drying?

1102 pm

Goh called asking bout to sell his seat to me.. Still considering ,, RM 50 is a pretty good deal. Dad just called asked me not to drive my 9900 back to Sungkai.. Car too old de.. Scared later the tires terbang and hit UFOs...
Money come de.. So can go and pay rent in Penang.. and settle some more stuffs.. Claims from USM is takng forever to come... Now also have come.. dunno how long de la..
Ceramics Chapter 6..

1200

FInish reading and sleeps.. at 12.15

2008-08-16T11:03:00.002+08:00

Hi guys

If you happen to sit for exam. Good luck. In this case, there are some nonsense that happened to me last nite. Apparently a friend rang me up and in the i rang her back to get a clearer picture and i think i scolded her on the phone.

On Wed, we had TQM finals and MTM IT and Business student are combining in the same class.

The issue started when some of the business student failed to get tips. Whereby tips is not given at all in the first place by Mr G.

Many students approaches him and come back with nothing. We MTM students (not all) are very cooperative and not selfish. I mean not all ok.. Therefore, we used to msn, yM and even Gtalk each other to get a clearer picture of the day. We predicted and analyzed what the lecturer says and questions such and quality and FMEA is no strange. When i was giving a guide for our exam, he mention which chapter and where to focus. So just think that he is saying it for fun. Some don even come for the class and some are not paying attention though they are paying the university so much of money.

Some of us IT and MTM student are suspected to go and get tips from him and it turn out that the source came from me. GFUS...this not my practice when comes to management paper as it si very flexible. U can goreng, rebus, buat sup and anything as long as you know the concept. NO big deal. MTM student know well bout this goreng stuff. But i dunno about the rest.

And what we discusses came out. These Son of Adam i think being adopted by Satan is spreading new that we MTM all got tips. Hellor.. machi... we also study like hell la. Simple conclusion made by you all huh...

And when i as why we are being suspected. They say the source came from me. They saw me going cafeteria have tea and i am sitting to a table next to the lecturer and the lecturer is having tea with other lecturers. Well i thinkthe Human Resource Registrar was there as well. So my sitting to the tablenext to the lectuere i am getting tips.. Very good telephaty system that i had..

They even concluded that everyone of us get the tips except for supernice and superblur. And i ask again, why you think we got the tips?

According to it, we mtm student tend to go out early. We must have tips so only we are able to go out early. If no tips we will sit and suffer in the exam hall... My question was, i knew how to do. Do i need to sit and stay in the hall for long for nothing?

Some of the mtm student are great fella. We got a policy to leave the exam hall in 2.5 hrs.. We even somtimes finished within 2 hrs. It is to respect the 2 hours paper as we finished 3 hours paper within 2 hurs sometimes.

***This world got very weird people. If i happen to get tips sharing is good but to certain people..

Petrol Saving Tips

2008-08-14T16:56:00.001+08:00

Found in my email stash: :D

1) Pump up your tyresKeeping your tyres inflated is one of the easiest and most important thingsSaving petrol means saving money one can do to improve fuel economy. If a range is recommended by the manufacturer, the higher pressure should be used to maximize fuel efficiency. Deflated tyres run hot and jeopardize safety.It will also cause the tyres to wear out prematurely, affect the vehicles adversely, and hurt the fuel economy by increasing the rolling resistance.Tyres lose about 1 psi pressure per month due to air loss caused by thetyre hitting holes, bumps and kerbs. Therefore, the tyres should be checked at least once a month. Just 1 tyre deflated by 2 psi will result in a 1% increase in fuel consumption.

2) Drive at moderate speedAvoiding high speeds on open roads results in safer driving and better fuel economy. In highway driving, over 50% of the power produced by the engine is used to overcome aerodynamic drag. Drag and thus fuel consumption increases rapidly at speeds above 90km/h. On the average, a car uses about 15% more fuel at 100km/h, and 25% more fuel at 110km/h compared to when it is doing only 90km/h. However, this should not lead one to conclude that the lower the speed, the better the fuel economy - because it is not. The fuel consumption of an average car increases sharply at speeds below 50km/h.

3) Clean the air-filter regularlyClogged air filters increase fuel consumption by restricting airflow to the engine, and thus should be cleaned/replaced when necessary. Clogged air filters can increase fuel consumption by up to 10%.

4) Use thinner tyresTyres with thick width will improve the handling of your car. However, it will also increase your car's fuel consumption. Thicker tyres mean morerolling resistance! , and thus will consume more fuel.

5) Start up the car properlyWith today's cars, it is not necessary to prime the engine first by pumping the accelerator pedal repeatedly.Do not crank the engine excessively This only wastes fuel. When starting the engine, idle it no more than 30 seconds to warm it up. An engine will warm up faster on the road. However, avoid sudden acceleration before the engine has warmed up sufficiently.

6) Drive in high gear (overdrive)The engine runs most efficiently between around 1,500 and 2,500 rpm. Tomaintain these low revs you should change up through the gears as soon as practical and before the revs reach 2500 rpm. For automatic transmission cars, you should always switch on your overdrive to help save fuel.Overdrive will allow your engine to change gears at lower revs. It alsoputs your transmission into an "economy" mode and lets it engage the final"overdrive" gear when cruising to ! keep the rpms extra low, therebyincreasing fuel economy.

7) Travel lightAvoid carrying any unnecessary weight in your car. On the average, every 50kg added load in your car will increase fuel consumption by 2%.

8) Anticipate traffic aheadA driver can reduce fuel consumption by up to 10% by anticipating traffic conditions ahead and adjusting the speed accordingly, and avoidingtailgating and thus unnecessary braking and acceleration. Accelerations and decelerations waste fuel. Braking and abrupt stops can be minimized by not following too closely and slowing down gradually when approaching a red light. It takes up to six times as much fuel to move a car from a dead stopthan it does for one moving at just a few km/h.

9) Avoid strong accelerationThe fuel consumption remains at a minimum during steady driving at amoderate speed of about 90km/h. Keep in mind that every time theaccelerator is hard pressed, t! he engine goes into a "fuel-enrichment" mode of operation that wastes fuel.The vehicle should always be gradually and smoothly accelerated. Using cruise control on highways can help maintain a constant speed and reduce fuel consumption.

10) Minimise aerodynamic dragAdditional parts on the exterior of a vehicle such as roof racks andspoilers, or having the window open, Roof racks are bad for fuel economy increases air resistance and fuel consumption, in some cases by over 20%.

11) Don't let your engine idleMinimize fuel wasted in idling by stopping the engine whenever your car is stopped or held up for an extended period of time. Idling more than aminute consumes much more fuel than restarting the engine. By having the engine switched off, you will save more fuel than is lost from the burst of fuel involved in restarting the engine. The net increased wear and tear from this practice is negligible.

12) Use the a! ir-con sparinglyAir conditioners can use about 10 per cent extra fuel when operating.However, at speeds of over 80 km/h, use of air conditioning is better for fuel economy than an open window

I Love TQM but it seems to Kill me

2008-08-12T17:17:00.002+08:00

TQM is killing me and yet this is one of the easiet of all 3 subject that i have this semester and yet this is so hard. I kinda get bored reading the notes as this is all repeatition and tht s y it is killing.

The slides is not killing as we are lucky we don have lecturer to are terlampau rajin as those who are in the medical and biological sciences schools whose slide can be made into a small novel. But the digrams in the slides are those which hypnotized me fully and completly without me realizing that time is already almost 6pm. No fun at all as time is not and never enough. Besides me is a guy who chats using email and i would like to introduce him but i am not allowed to do so as i think he will kill me. His name starts with N and he is a classmate of mine for 3 years. So fast time flies.

So those who read this, please pray hard that i pass with Flying colours, crayons, watercolour, posterclour and whatsover colour. Well only luck can save me as the question is harder to predict than predicting a woman during PMS.

PM is coming to AIMST

2008-08-11T21:45:00.002+08:00

Just got to know today our PM is coming to AIMST for its grand opening where you can see pillars of tents being anchored on the virgin concert that lay the foundation of the pathway trailing along the way to the admin building. Today has been a tiring day for me. Exam is coming and yet i don feel the heat.. Still wanna play play and fool around.

Final Year Project Presentation. March 6, 2008

2008-08-10T22:10:00.005+08:00

Final Year Project presentation day. I think everyone of us performed well and we did better than expected i guess. Seeing is believing therefore i rather tell the story based on pictures than crapping directionless.

We started at 8.35 am.

Lecturer start asking question, if not mistaken this is on TGA equations.

My turn came with me arranging paper, my writeup from my thesis which i may need to support my points. Well better prepare, let ppl say you are old fashion instead of getting yourself banged kau kau in the end...

Presenting the Introduction of my Project.

I think i am in the second slide now. Guess what, i like the tie i am wearing which bring me luck where ever i go. I wore the same time when i went for my interview in Western Digital.

The layout of the wastewater treatment systems. CnP from internet of course..

Presenting my experimental parameters..

Someone which i do not expect ask me questions. My supervisor.. You know la.. He knew his students in and out. He will definitely knew my weakness..

Proposal time. On where my product can be utilized in the domestic and industrial waste water system.

A closer look of the layout.. You can google this also.. I have to regret to say i took it from the internet..

It's a Q&A session. My classmate says i got banged, showered with doubts and uncertainties, my lecturer says he is interested, my other course friends says, you are the last so YOU Are THE ONE... But i say.. I did my part, i would like this to ask me more so I can make the understand better.Someone capture this without me knowing.. haha...

Sree Ramanan my ex- housemate

I admit that 3 of us are very naughty but we are not bad.Perfect moment with sentimental backgroundsThe happy me posing to shoot unseen birds up in the sky with my bulletless finger pointing 45 degrees..

2008-08-10T02:17:00.003+08:00

less than 2 hrs ago, i got to know that one of my friend had fell out of love. This time being dumped instead of dumping. Well i think perhaps to me it was a blow but to him it was just a kick. According to the gal which happen to be my aquaintances, he can get gal easily, sounded insecured. By the way, the gal i believe an innocent good gal. I think she deserve someone better. Well she is still young and had a bright future ahead.

In another part, i am starting to condemn two faced people. Those people talk differently when see different people. Well, i start to know who are those bastards are and these bastards are getting some bastardy treat from me very very soon. Just sit back and relax and enjoy the show. These people are FAGGOTs, even their existence was incomparable to a bulk of cow dunk and a pile of rubbish. This is because cow dunk and rubbish do not change for as what these people does.

The people also took advantage out of the situation and i had been watching for long which i think i cud not stand anymore. Being patient for long don mean you can treat easy going people and use them simply. I think my curse on msn was working. my wish for these bastards for not getting a job for life is a way to save the community from being polluted with the existence of these people. Word is mightier than sword. You please don make me say it twice. A terribly annoyed heart, when it explodes and start to scold and condemn, make an effective prayers on whether it is good or bad. God will decide and i again don mind being the loser again. I believe i will always gain in the end provided i am on the right path.

*** Plagiarism is the stupidest things to do in life especially to someone closely associated
** Being two faces is good to survive. You only can shine awhile. Gloomy sky awaits you for your whole life starting from now. You know what i mean. Dooms lor.. hehhe
* Becoming a batu api to get/ among friends is even a more Pok Kai act. You tell other peoplethings and make the fighting party to become heated up. You are really a penical pok kai chai...

I just hope that my working life will drain away all these. Let a new chapter begin itself. My degree life is wonderful when i met sookfuan, sye fei, chong hui, & family, zhili @ sasa ,angeline, alan and chan. These people somehow make my days a lil better with more silver lining appears. i am just too independent that my family will let me decide myself.

Driver used rope to kill himself ; Courtesy from BBC UK.

2008-08-09T17:02:00.000+08:00

Gerald Mellin left a note with his funeral wishes, the inquest heard

A depressed businessman going through a divorce decapitated himself by tying a rope to a tree and driving away in his open-top car, an inquest has heard.

Gerald Mellin, 54, of Neath, showed the rope to his 33-year-old wife two weeks earlier when he had asked her to quit their business and their farmhouse.

He cancelled his life insurance and ran up debts because he wanted to leave her "with nothing," the hearing was told.

Swansea coroner Phillip Rogers recorded a verdict of suicide.

Mr Mellin's widow Mirrielle told the hearing she had won a court order the day before her husband's suicide for an extra £100 a week from him to help with the running of the house.

He sent her a text message that evening saying "Congratulations XXX" and that was the last time she heard from him.

Gerald created the debt because he always said if I left him he would leave me with nothing

Mirrielle Mellin

Early on 14 September 2007, Mr Mellin tied one end of a rope to a tree in a car park on Mumbles Road in Swansea.

He wrapped the other end around his neck and accelerated away in his Aston Martin DB7.

A suicide note was found in Mr Mellin's pocket detailing his funeral wishes.

The hearing was told Mr Mellin owned a gym and sun tanning centre, where his wife worked as a beautician.

'Laughed'

The couple married in 2002 but had split up in 2007 and Ms Mellin continued living in their farmhouse at Crumlin, near Neath.

Mirrielle Mellin told the court their marriage was mostly "horrendous".

She told the court: "Our marriage was horrendous most of the time. After we split he phoned me and said he wanted to do a deal with selling the business.

"He had been to see an accountant but the way he did it was all wrong. I said it was about time we stopped arguing and started behaving like adults.

"That was when I met him in the pub and he showed me the rope.

"As we made our way back to our cars he opened the boot and said 'there's my rope, that's what I'm going to kill myself with'.

"I told him to grow up and give me the rope. But he just laughed."

'Anxiety'

"He would say suicidal thoughts, but I never actually believed that he would do anything. It was always a cry for help with Gerald. That's why I find it hard to believe this time around," she said.

Ms Mellin told the hearing she would have to sell the farmhouse to pay the debts.

She said: "Gerald created the debt because he always said if I left him he would leave me with nothing."

Det Con Ceri John said Mr Mellin was being treated for depression at the time of his death and was first seen by a psychiatrist for anxiety at the age of four.

Mr Rogers recorded the cause of death as decapitation.

He said: "On the evidence I have heard - notwithstanding Mrs Mellin's view of her husband's actions in the past and on this occasion that this was a cry for help - I'm satisfied no-one could have done what Mr Mellin did without realising the consequence of such an action would be his own death."

2008-08-09T10:50:00.003+08:00

this never come across myself until i read on someones advice to me reviewing myself. In a way this true also because without constructive comments, there aint development. When i give a deep thought of it, not speaking to someone will create more unnecessary problem compared when u spoke to someone. In particular my housemates, i believe ( previously ) of being patient can at least subside some problem. In the matter of fact there are no problem. Just some people mentalities that cause the problem to come. There will be no problem unless you think there is a problem... True or not?

Anyway there are merely 18 days more before these nightmare ends. The advice from the friend of mine is deeply valued. Not easy to find friends nowadays. Most people are fake and selfish. Some even come to you when they need you till the extend your thesis is being copied from your computer and used it for what i dunno. These peoplewill get their revenge from god or from the authority.

As for my house mates, i will all of you luck. I used to clean the 2nd Hall and yesterday it was the second time i found Rubbish piling outside my room, just before the room door. I was wondering what kinda shitty cheap and sluggish behavior "you" have for you to have such a low morale. Living for 2 decades but there aren't a proper way to dispose your waste. Sigh... I here wish them luck also in their job hunting and in furthering their studies.. There is a way long back history on why we came into this stage. Some of the highlights are merely betrayal, childish mindset, and all other silly things that i can't recall. basically there are no fairness whereby one side have to tahan and the other side attacks.

In fact i feel much safer being outside the house, lepaking with friends, yumchar and the best part is to receive visit from friends from KL. Thanks to you all. All these years and with the environment i am in, i make me tougher and stronger. I don mind to be at the losing side all the time but to certain extend do not go overboard. I stay back in the house which i had left long time due to my respect to the verbal contract that we agreed. I have done my part not messing and finally gain nothing. Well, i cant care much.. I will miss SP when i am going to Penang. I will miss my room and definitely not this house. It gave the hell outta me... Enough..

** Need to start reviewing myself.. Haha.

Corporate Video Shooting

2008-08-05T19:20:00.005+08:00

On my way back from Bukit Hijau, i had been summoned to be present in the LAB at 5pm sharp, together with the Banana Group people. And this is what we had to do there.. Shooting.. From that moment, i know that i do not have the talent to become an actor as i cant act well. It was stressful but fun and yet i am sweating also. It all ended in 2 hours with a less than 10 minutes of video.

AAS Demo by CC Goh and MT Leow

AAS Instrumentation Control Terminal by CC Goh

Hot Furnace with temperature up to 1600 degC by YY Chin
( Take 1)

Hot Furnace with temperature up to 1600 degC by YY Chin
( Take 2)
Their concern is all bout getting the motion. so i have to betray myself and yet to use the wrong techniques.. Deng.. So i consider this an event before i graduate from my degree.. Nice one..

2008-08-04T20:49:00.004+08:00

The week started with the 6 Sigma Short Seminar from Miss Ooi Chin Chin and Lim Ping Ping from Motorola.

This was taken just moment before i burst my car petrol filter which cause me to send a mechanic to AIMST to fix the damage.

Somewher near midnight, i went to submit my second draft of my thesis.. well Some does cincai but i am becoming perfectionist in this as this resembles my 3 years of hardwork.

Farewell for the seniors, supercheap one.. maile....

List of Graduates

I look as if i am happy but in some other picture, there are someone who posed as if they are in grief.. not nice to show and tell who they are..

TQM Presentation.. I think is my last ever moment i get to enjoy and doing some naughty stuff back in campus.. Gonna miss the moment forever.

The morning when i went to submit my thesis

The jam was caused by the accident that happen near the bridge to Semeling Town

Without further consideration, we escaped to Bukit Hijau using the car below..

23 Years old charade
The Trio. that does all the all the naughty things together. You can just name it and we had done it. But we don harm people and make people to lose their dignity and sanity.

Corporate Video ( MTM Edition)

The MTM Team with YB

The 9900 is making it's comeback.. Life after death.. (almost)

2008-07-28T20:59:00.002+08:00

Those were the Days in The LAB

2008-07-28T20:28:00.003+08:00

Siao Kia..CC Goh

I join the fun...

Potential Torpedos Behind the Lab

Goh, Mun Tyng and YY Chin..
Feel proud to be in the Banana Team.

On 28 July 2008 in Engineering Faculty Building
I am the Dean.. for less than 30 seconds..

and I was therefore called.. Professor Chin For that 30 seconds only..
At least there is something worth to be cherished before i leave the degree...

TQM Presentation

2008-07-28T00:03:00.002+08:00

Being the first Presented

Presenting when my leg was shaking.. pants also almost come down as its too loose de

Trying to relax as i think i said something but also notable to cover up ...

The 3 dudes who wore the Official Shirt.. One left in the class and One just Celup the shirt and Un Celup after the presentation.
Tat Celup dude perhaps think this shirt is ugly and don match the good look.. Anyway he also got look lor..
Personal Opinion, I am very proud of this shirt.. Where the heck in this noble life you can wear it again?
I will really miss the moment we had our shirt on us.. We have to be proud of wat we have.. We are suppose to look up upon ourself..
Else who else going to look up at the short me.. Perhaps gals who are shorter than me la.. Taller than me one don look up at me... disguise and disbelieve are possible outcomes.

Anyway.. short ppl gt many tricks and ideas..
AI CHAI DO KAI - Translate into canto.. so don play play..

I Visited a Junkyard.. Guess What i Saw..

2008-07-27T20:48:00.002+08:00

*** To be Continued -_-_-_-_-_

Tao Autocity

2008-07-25T19:54:00.004+08:00

Instrumentation Lab of Department of Materials Science, AIMST University

2008-07-21T00:40:00.004+08:00

This is a place for me to

Complete my thesis
Complete my research
Complete my assignment
Complete my BSc. (Hons) Materials Technology with Management

and also to COMPLETE my life...

Welcome to the Instrumentation Lab of Department of Materials Science, AIMST University
This is just a small room out of the whole lab.. and there are more to come in the future entries..

2008-07-19T01:35:00.002+08:00

shit.. when all the people or most of them finished writing introduction for their thesis, i am still delaying it. I am thinking and keep thinking even to write one paragraph. I just aims to finish by midnight but now also almot 2 am and yet still halfway. Guess i am going to settle it tonight also. Cannot delay..

Yesterday i went down to penang.. I were summoned to collect my offer letter which i planned to collect by august. In the same time, i contacted some property owner and went and take a look of the rooms. After 5 places i finally decided to take The 10th floor of N Park of Batu Uban, near USM as the place for me to reside. Seriously, i don get or have the feeling i am going to work already as i will go in and have training for 6 months first before i start. Prior to that, i am getting so lazy now, enjoying life but i cut down the crapping in class la. Well, the wrong people don mess with me, else i sure get ur life and ass into full throttle troubles. Watch me and prove me. You know who you are.

All went well except i am poorer by RM 100.. Luckily i kept some cash in my debit card so i just used that to pay for my petrol, not so shoing' la else, this month i sure bankrupt. I mean the real bankrupt.. The way the money flows out is like water tap, but there was nothing unnecessary which i spent on just on food and petrol, even that also my charade is saving 10-15% of the previous consumption of petrol. This one must thank to goh la who help and advice me in creating the cool air intake.

This whole week passes very fast. Now its weekends already mean i am getting older and older. Need to get back to work..

2008-07-12T22:30:00.003+08:00

I always believe to give out something when i get something. Earlier this week, i ask on vacancies available in First Solar and i was asked to send over my resume to the hiring manager. Earlier, I had a phone interview with Intel for the position of Materials Engineer, which is totally related to the field i study eventhough i am just good enough to be one. Another company who called me on the same day was Spansion and i am summoned for an interview for the position of Device Engineer. Well let put a stop here as i don think i want to elaborate what happen next from here.

At one point of time, i am kinda scared that i may not get any offer or even an interview invitation. Well one thing is because of my result and also the job availability in the market. Earlier, when i went to Western D for their interview, i saw a slim chance as i am the first few whom they interview and moreover, I got myself hit on the first day of the interview itself. Therefore, i understand and knew what is it kinda feeling when others secured a place while you not.

My dad does hiring at times and i always consulted him for what best to present myself during the interview and the secret to the success is just a cup of coffee. Well, partially i have to agree with this as a cup of coffee makes you become a lil more awake and aware of what is happening at around you. After the interview, the manager whom interview me comments that i did quite well and perhaps this brightened by chances of securing this. In the end of the 2 weeks of grace period with hopes to hear a good news waiting, i finally received a call from Western D HR saying that i has been shortlisted and i was told to collect my offer letter on last monday, July 7th 2008.

I believe this is a blessing to myself. All these while life has been tough for me. I don show it as i don think i deserved to be pitied over my personal things. I unlike some other people who tries the world to get their attention. My junior even says that i seems to not have any problem and heartache as they always see me in a shape where i am crapping and creating havoc in class. Haha... Frankly i have to thank my classmate who had got a schorlarship from Infineon for her postgraduate, if you are reading this you know who you are.

Well her intention to apply early and got a place secured tick my mind somewhere back in May 2008. I was thinking if i were to apply early perhaps i can get also., well maybe la.. From that day onwards, Jobstreet, JobsDb, Monster and other MNCs website become my daily treat hunting for openings. At one point of time, i almost give up as i don seems to see any light from my applications. But i keep on trying until WD calls came somewhere in Early June when i was having Hakka Food with Slyvester back in SP.

Therefore, i got the email of the hiring manager and i straight away inform my classmates, I mean all my classmates on this. this is not a noble act so i don actually expect any gratitute from anyone but, just what sadden me is there are some parties who tries to be selfish.. well, seriously i have nothng to worry as i already secured a place. I am just doing my part to help other who don or haven get a place yet. this is the least i can do i guess..

My final end on August 20th and i am joining WD on August 26, a tentative date given by the HR to myself.
Wish me luck there..

2008-07-08T18:26:00.003+08:00

Upon graduation every one will want to secure a job as well as a place to further their studies. Being the eldest sometime give you a lot of disadvantages. You will have to sacrifice to accommodate the younger ones as parent don earn USD instead they are earning good enough RM to allow us to survive.

Being born in a lower middle and slowly upgraded to upper middle class family, due to the petrol price increase, we are now a middle class family, just nice to meet the needs with some extras, i mean abit extra la..therefore, my priority is to get a job

upon my graduation. .......

Being worry for nothing, i have few companies calling me for interviews and i guess i will upset them. Frankly i am glad that they called me up as thereafter i know that what i studied and work has worth something. Its is a kind of appraisal for myself for being shortlisted for their interview session. The below 2 are based in Ipoh, places full of leng lui and leng jai.. And now i am in between the crossroad , to choose only and only one. Nothing more than that.

On this coming thursday, the 2 company below has an appointment with me but i turn them down politely just a few minutes ago. There must be some solid reason why i am doing so. Before making this decision, its was hard for myself as the one of the interview i am attending is the second interview and if let say i was able to perform and impress them, i may or may not be hired if the opposite happens. I was looking at the KLSE index just moments ago, our country's index doesn't seems to perform that well with only gamuda and scomi having their share price increased and this is another reason why i have to decide fast.

This one.. I wanna cry.... Spansion

.. Intel .. .. ... my dream company right from the start i join materials technology
Always passionate to join ...
... Just hope they will reconsider me in future.

To Janna Syariza, please be strong.. May god be with the truth...

WD interview . 09-June 2008

2008-07-06T15:44:00.003+08:00

On the way... Just eaten lunch with Chong Hui and Zhi Li

Just after the Bridge.. No Jam... If not sure i will be late...

This Pak Rempit was blocking my way.. nah.... give you a shot as evidence first...

Western Digtal Lobby...

The nervous me... Yalah... Chui Sui' i can la.. Interview wor,,,
Just after this photo is taken i have been called into the interview room and integoration starts and last for I hour plus. Come out almost 6pm de...

Hows the outcome?

Tomoro is the day... and i am kinda nervous till cant sleep... Machi...
Sien..

Glad and Blessed

2008-07-05T19:46:00.003+08:00

I am very happy today.. Very happy until when i think of it i am feeling proud of myself achieving such degree of excellence.. I believe the rest of my classmates also can do it as well. I am anxiously waiting for monday.

Hectic Week

2008-07-03T10:03:00.002+08:00

Monday
Study for Electronics Material.. Hope can do a bit well.

Tuesday
Study for Electronics Materials, Was looking for sample questions.. All formulas make me wanna vomit

Wednesday
The day.. Electronics Materials Exam.. The paper was looking at me all the time rather than me looking at it..
Sien..
Kena tiao by Medical Lab S,O
And the phone interview... for jobs la of course.. Economy so bad..Hope that i am among one of the luckiest la..

Thursday (Today)
Lab In the Morning and in the afternoon: Ceramics Project to date. Start Writing my thesis. And Prof Teoh from USM is coming..

Friday:
TQM Draft final date.

Saturday
Ceramics Lab in the day, Night,Chong Hui Sister Apple Birthday Party.. Must attend..

Sunday
So far i am free today so can ask me out for yum char... if you got heart la.. haha..
Will sleep till the sun is at the top of my head to compensate my lack of sleep.

All this i will hate it now but for sure i will miss it soon after i am employed as there will be a worst life which i hope will not be..

2008-07-02T00:05:00.000+08:00

Wife is like a TV and Girlfriend is like a Hand phone.

While at home we watch TV, and when we go out bring along Hand phone.

No money, sell TV. Got money change Hand phone.

Sometimes enjoy TV, but most of the time play with Hand phone.

In life, if you don't pay the hand phone services will be terminated.

TV is big, bulky and most of the time old, but Hand phone is cute and slim,

Electronics Materials ...or........ Electronic MATI liao...

2008-07-01T02:29:00.005+08:00

Wah shit.. I wanna die liao.. perhaps this is wht i wrote on my msn. Very the not stress punya opposite and very the happy punya opposite. How to study man.. What is being given in the notes is so brief and i have to go online and look for articles. I now appreciate TQM more as i don have to crack head if i wanna find more information.

Things like Meissner Effect and Copper dunno wat is hard man.. I have to use my IMAGINATION to imagine and hope what i had imagined will not be an imaginary line lah... Very the sien when think or start to think of it. I try my very best to make this interesting but this is my final sem and still, i am feeling kinda lazy and very reluctant to open my books / notes. I dunno whether is it normal or I am getting tired writing my thesis which is another imaginary line also.

My notes.. can u see the word Electronics Mati Liao?
Cannot see find...

Another depressing view of my study table with depressive notes and stationeries...
well I pity u all need to "Ngai Tong Siu" with me...

Sleeping mode........

A cicak just passed by so the yellow lamp dropped...
Cicak become my friend at this hour... Me become cicakman...punya kawan la...

Perhaps i need to get some sleep and wake up earlier tomoro to start again.. Final Battle..

***
Our University has a new system whereby they are now having 3 sets of finals Q paper means here tips that are tip top tok also no use. What the sien thing to think of.. we study exam wanna pass nia.. making our life so hard.. summore we are paying la...KNN CCB.. ( feel like cursing more) but just felt bad complaining my such wonderful life...

Machi...

2008-06-30T00:41:00.002+08:00

TULAN>>>
TULAN
it has been so dead lately, keeping promises to finish and attend functions. Well, it has been a hell of a week with me FFK yum char session for 2 times in a roll and dinner for being late always.. What happened to me..

Electronics materials mid term is coming and my head is not full neither thinking of it as there are something that has a bigger priority. My Final Year Project thesis has just begun and the whole week i just able to get what my lecturer wants for the results part and trust me i am still working on it. Its very hard as i have 1 pure and 6 modified samples to sync and makes sure that the data goes well. Whilst i had done with my experimental part, some of my classmates are still struggling and what i can do best is to lend my ears to listen to their grudges. Thats all i can do for now.

Meanwhile, i receive a call from a company asking me to attend their interview. I have replied them saying that i have to delay it and give them another date as i am having trouble travelling and also i will be running out of budget once i attend it. On another part, i have been shortlisted for an interview that i attend earlier and hopefully they come out with black and white so i can confirm myself being employed. Else, i only can see dust and flies hovering above my head and leave me directionless. So, you guys, and gals, pls pray that get the confirmation ASAP. I rather die than waiting like this.....

My dad has been very nice to me lately. Just today, he called me up to ask me whether i wanted a change/swap between my old charade and his wira. Perhaps, the charade bring alot of meaning to me and i declined the offer but, i was thinking to use my dad's current car when i am working if he gets himself a Vios or City. Well, after so long supporting me financially eventhough we had some little dispute awhile ago, i think he deserved a better car and let the young one learn the meaning of hardship. Anyway, i do not mind using his 8 years old Wira as it has been really well maintained.

ED aX Seminar

2008-06-19T01:22:00.001+08:00

Roof Top

2008-06-10T18:40:00.003+08:00

These are some images taken from the rooftop. Rooftop from some places in SP.

Ladder leading to the top

Picture taken without looking

Great Hall

Water runs along this when it rains.. It don rains but it pours

Housing estate

Park Wrong Place U Kena Saman

2008-06-05T00:51:00.001+08:00

It was Thursday and I try to have sometime to study and in the same time hand up my assignment on time. When i was walking pass the library this is what i saw.. I feel sorry to the car owner but from the serial number i think this is the third one.

Just by looking at the list of offenses, I think i have broken most of it..

The night when the Petrol Price Skyrocket

2008-06-04T22:16:00.001+08:00

Petrol Price increase. I got a sms from Simon saying that this increase at about 6pm. In the same time i got a group discussion for my TQM in library which makes me to come out and get the black gold an hour later.

When i reach the road leading to BEdong, the road and traffic has become very congested and i have no choice but to make a U turn back to the bypass. The same scenario happens in all the road leading to petrol station and i decided to take and buy petrol at the nearest station which is the station in amanjaya. So my last full tank which is going to bring me to penang on monday is Rm 3 to RM 50. Bye Bye cheap fuel. COndem the stupid government. Dunno where the hell is all the subsidy.. Cibai government make my wallet break and pay more.. They don study management and they should go back to classroom and study.. forget politics and let someone like me to go and rule. then i will make the petrol cheap for everyone... cibai government... gth..

Damiral's Grill Luncheon..

2008-05-26T16:40:00.004+08:00

I guess i am reading spanish or danish or any other languages but definitely its not english. I cant understand, understood or create an understanding between me and electronics materials Hell no man.... it kills and there after, we need to enjoy. Me this sem pair up with 3 of my junior and we are doing some ceramics. Sounds chicky but this is our first trial and we dare to fail. No pain no gain. Below are some take after lab which end up we do nothing but depositing fats and glycerol addition to the current shape of our body. Haizz.. Very lazy to write so much as Sungai Petani is so HOT..... Lost my mood already la...

Bukit Hijau

2008-05-24T19:41:00.004+08:00

Not so long ago, after i am almost done with my work in Biotechnology Lab, we and some of the Biotechnology mates went to this place called Bukit Hijau. This was my second trip here as my first time here was with another group of friends which i will upload later.

I am updating this as i felt the guilt of not updating for so long. For now i am watching Hong Kong drama and writing my report.

Kelvin Yap's Wedding

2008-04-24T00:13:00.002+08:00

Venue : Crystal Crown PJ
Date : March 30th 2008

The half drunk me and Joe

Part of the Bahaurian...
Victor, Joe, Chin, Soon,Brandon, Tommy

Me and Soon

Me and Brandon.. He is now dating my junior back in high school

2008-04-22T18:34:00.003+08:00

This is the first week of classes but mine only start when all my classmates are back. Therefore, there are 2 weeks of rest time, extra rest time for me. When i recall back the times i had here back in my Uni life, the thing that i regret is not to treasure what i had before this properly. Perhaps this is the biggest regret after all.

And the disputes i had here, well, i think we should mirror ourself before we point to others. I made mistakes and do wrong things as well but always there are a better way to solve and negotiate rather than terminating it just like tat.

Talking bout my final year project, some are lucky enough to have Ah Sir" to run some of the experiments for them. Means that they don really have to do so many things and the bad things is they learn less. For those who "pia" their work, its vice versa. I am glad that i did all the dirty job and obtained great result by myself. I am proud to say that the experimental result resembled my work and my courtesy and commitments towards my project. Earlier, I was dealing with Biological Science works where I am involved in HPLC works. The HPLC work is a project under a grant from FELDA, a company which my father was an employee there till end of this year. Well he is retiring this year. Everything is paid and I don have to crack my head on chemicals and stuffs.

It was completed in March itself and the work done is sufficient to be included in my thesis. And here comes the second part, the study of Dye and natural products. This will be the second part of my thesis which i am longing to complete within this week itself. And soon I am going to take some picture of my project to be kept and perhaps for display here. I believe that Final Year Project in Degree level is only once. Therefore I must treasure.

Another study on heavy metals is coming and I am suppose to continue with the work once i am done with the work on the natural products. Well i guess my third year studies time about 60% is dedicated for research, 20% for studies and 20% for personal items. In the team of 3 that runs the research works, we are working very closely and assisting each other in completing the necessary works. I can say that we truly enjoy working with each other which close up the ties and it somehow become a bonding session.

My 24th Birthday

2008-04-19T15:11:00.007+08:00

This is a pretty weird post as i lost my camera to some unprecedented events. Early this month when i was in Bedong. I took the Bedong way to Amanjaya as for bike it is more convenient for bikers like me.. Since i like to go faster than any one else in the same time to have a more scenic journey definitely this route is best. On that day, just before i took a corner near the town, there are cows crossing over the road and make me almost collide with one of them. Perhaps that time the camera drops and till now i seems cant find the camera, i mean the same model again. Using that camera to take picture makes alot of differences as it was a semi pro one.

Here are some of my birthday shots in LioZ cafe in Village Mall.

Chong Hui, my Sei Tong'

Chan, Chong Hui Chin and Tan

Angeline, one of my good friends back here in AIMST

And more..
................................

And these are among the last few shots with my Nikon Coolpix S210.. Bye bye

MCB betul the timing

2008-04-01T01:05:00.002+08:00

Just 24 hrs ago, i left KL after attending Victor's bro's wedding in Crystal Crown Petaling Jaya. I was drinking a lil not to much..Just 5-6 glasses of wine and 3-5 glasses of Brandy and i am still walking straight.. The kind Soon send me to Pudu together with Tony who are going back to Singapore in is newly bought Mitsubishi STORM.. Have to mention its a YELLOW colour one..

So this morning when i go back to the Lab where i am working and as usual i able to used my tougue and some skills to get my HPLC room connected with internet. Well of course i ask permission first. Initially i was planning to go to KL again this weekend before going back to Cheng Beng next week. But at about 11am i got an email saying there are a visit by Prof Teoh from USM to Aimst.. Deng.. deng deng.. no i won be able to make it to KL for the Jobstreet Jobfair... Niasing...
Means there is no dnner with friends that i long to reconnect... Diu... Sien... wanna shout out but scared kena complain so let me do it here...

dennnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggg...tiuuuuuuuuuuuuuuzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..

Those were the days of Materials Technology Guys

2008-02-27T00:33:00.003+08:00

This day may be the last day of the semester , which means that I will only be seeing all my classmates in the coming FINAL semester which will take place in April and we are all scheduled to be gradutating in August 2008 itself.

Apart from being a bookworm... oppss.. in my case i only study when the exam is near and this is pretty bad as we only have 1 week of study break and we have to cramp all in within the week. Today, ( when the picture was taken) , the place where i studies had roadsigns being installed and one of it seems to be named after the late leader of the country, Tun Sambanthan.. See see ook look lka.... i am too lazy to type..

p/s

I have a visitor coming from USM in an hour time... They are the grant holder of my current final year project. The are Prof Teoh Siang Guan and Prof Mas Rosemal.. Means later i need to present my findings to them... Scary but i know i can do it.

Sree, Me, Goh,Nithi and Yap

Sree, Me, Joshua ,Nithi and Yap

Birds of Different Feather Never Flocks Together.

2008-02-24T02:59:00.002+08:00

Birds of Different Feather Never Flocks Together, this phrase is very true infact 2 different person from a different background can sometimes find it very impossible to get along moreover to get together. I use not to believe but by the time i post this, i am leaving everything to the fate to determine. I am feeling very tired going against the tide to get and achieve what i want. I am feeling so tired. Out of sudden, the fighting spirit in me is like being flammed down. It was not me at all, leaving things just like that, "Sun Kei Ji Yin".

I used to be a very stubborn person, in gettng what i want without fear or favour.. But in the sense i feel that i am not in control when i want to control things. This make the rule of the game to be less attractive. you don get what you want. but when i leave things to flow as what it suppose to be, i gain back what i want and love most. For instance, in year 2007, i am in tremendous stress and unhappiness when things around me changed drastically. I leave things as it suppose to be and guess what, things regarding my academic and my social circles went up. I don study as hard as before but my result skyrocketed... not to the extend of getting dean's list but i am so close to that. I lose many friends and felt the world is empty but nw i have not many but a few good friends, which is enough than getting many and great numbers of common friends, which will only see and look when you are in trouble, which care less but wanted you to fell so you can be a laughing stock to them.

Therefore, i now fully understand that if a person who has too much of differences, its better to find their own way to go on rather than staying on. I am glad that that happened which turns me to something more challenging eventhough the path that i had passes is not a so pleasant one.
Differences bring apart souls that once used to be together. Something happen for a reason and only good things will be brought forward. A year passed so fast. I am happy i am myself now, but now i am so tensed, but it wasn't written on my face thought i am depressed with my life currently.

" Birds of Different Feather Never Flocks Together."

Final Year Project

2008-02-20T00:54:00.004+08:00

Everyone doing or pursuing a science degree will be compulsory to undergo a hard, tedious but knowledgeable time or period while doing their final year project. In some cases, some lucky one will get plentiful of privileges, such as journals printed and given by lecturers, subsidies journals from the internet, guidance and patience as well as attention given by lecturers and not to forget, lecturer assisting not partially but entirely which is the most and worst ass kicking attitude is the completion of the project. The question is what did you learn? Learn to make us of people or learn to make use of the resources. To be given a choice, i rather stay up later, skip my precious meal, and also to give up some of the most important thing in my life to enable myself to be close and get involved in the completion of the project. With the ample time given, completion is not an issue but to complete with flying crayons and colour pencils seems to be a tough job.

To date, as a material science student, whom jumped and migrated from Biotech 3 years ago, i am back doing things that i once love most. Biology. It may sound weird but when u come to think of it, its is an additional knowledge and experience for me which become a plus point, well who knows when i graduated. The fact is, the lecturer can only offer this project which was granted by FELDA, which my father was an employee there too. It wasn't a fixed as the grant was awarded to USM's Prof Teoh while my lecturer was a Co- Researcher and Myself is a Co-Co researcher. Hahaa..

To complete this darn task, i have to get my heavy ass off to the New campus in semeling where the biomedical fridge is position firmly to store my samples below -18 degrees celsius. Once i loaded my sample into the box, i will have to leave immediately and be in the Amanjaya Lab which is 15 km away in 15 minutes time. This is because the sample will degrade when heat and light is presence. Initially it become a very exciting part racing to the Lab but when you did it for a few more days, it became a routine and to be honest, commuting using a motobike is faster than by using a car.

Here are some picture for illustration purposes. Don steal it or modify it.. It bring no good at all as this are not leng lui's picture that can be super or hyper imposed.. Moreover, the author, which is me does not have a good look to be worth superimposed..

Pantai Merdeka - Kedah

2008-02-17T21:22:00.009+08:00

Sunday, 17th of February 2008, 4.15pm, i started my pre-planned journey to Pantai Merdeka. Since I had been here since 2005, is was a little shame for me to not go around while i am still around here. Just that i don want to regret and be sorry later after i leave this place. I leave my residential area here in Sungai Petani and head south. The journey took 40 minutes which is about 35km from BLM.

The first place i stop is at the roadside of Kota Kuala Muda. It was just a small technical inspection on the vehicle i am on to prevent accidental breakdown. In the mean time, i just snap snap snap... while i rest.

6km more to Pantai Merdeka...

Tanjung Dawai can be seen from here....

Pantai Merdeka Beachline..

Thinking.....

Thinking again....

One of the many many stalls set up here..

Pantai Merdeka Resort.. Under construction..

Coconut trees..

My tired face...

Tired face.....

I believe there are suppose to be the word
"Pantai Merdeka"
but i guess its stolen...

The White House...

Paddy Harvesting..

Jetty at Kota Kuala Muda

Paddy Field in Sungai Petani..

In the end.. i reached SP again at 630 pm and got myself home at 7pm after getting and buying dinner from the night market...
It is nice going around the place, exploring places that we only heard but not physically present with. This may be the first step of mine going to more places rather than sitting restlessly at home in the weekends developing "permanent resident" in my body..

2008 Chinese New Year

2008-02-15T16:37:00.009+08:00

Chinese New Year is a new year, a starting of a Lunar Calendar. I just have a short 5 days of break starting from Tuesday to Sunday. This short new year i would say is the best so far. 2007 is a so so year for me and i hope with the new year starting, i will see lotsa luck and good things happening.

On the eve, we went and shop, grab and take what soever that we think we need for the new year. Last minute shopping always the preferences as we can get things cheaper and avoid getting unnecessary good, which in the end reduces wastages. Money is important. We later head home for reunion dinner.

First day of Chinese New Year, i was greeted by some friends, some malay friends from KL which happens to be my classmates before this. I am touched by their sincerity willing to come down all the way from KL just to meet a small and ordinary person like me.

Second day of the new year, my brother went to see his gf after "bai nien" so there is no extra cars for me that night. I just stay home and watch TVB drama given by WeeShen and my cousin brother. And not to forget we had a Dota Session at home as nowadays, laptops are affordable, so we all had one each, and even my youngest brother has one also these days.

On the third day, i left early from Sungkai. When i was awake, i saw only my grandma was the only one awake and it was 7am in the morning. Perhaps everyone was tired. I left house at 8 am after a quick breakfast. First place i drop by in ipoh is Tai Ka Lok where i meet up with Denis and we had breakfast. The breakfast we had is the longest ever as from the time we reach and we leave, it is exactly 2 hours, but in the new year, there is no issue as in rushing or wat, we should enjoy and cherish the new year as it is only once a year.

Later, Sye Fei house comes next, and Mc D gathering which was pre planned is on schedule. There i meet up with Wai Yip, Yee Meng, Sook Fuan, Chee Kin, Sok Ling, Tze Jian and Sye Fei. It was an annual gathering which we will come out and meet up. This year i am the organizer but it doesn't matter as long as we all had a good time together.

We chit chat till almost dinner time and i had not been in Ipoh for quite some time therefore i decided to go to have a walk in Jusco. Here are some snaps with some lengluis .....Myself look darn tired as i had been out for almost the whole day. We had dinner here in Jusco as the traffic out there has no difference compared to KL.

After dinner, it was about 9pm. I decided to go back but i had a sudden rush to visit my grandaunt who happens to live nearby. I am not surprise that she doesn't recognized me as when i last saw her 5 years ago, i was very very thin and now i doubled. haha..

Thats all for now.. To be continued with ......

The next day, when i was entertaining my cousins from Terengganu, i received a call from some friends from Ipoh saying that they are coming to visit me in Sungkai. It was near lunch hour and there is nothing much u can eat even though you have 1 million in your pocket. These are those who are on their way back to KL which happens to drop by Bidor. Happy Chinese New Year to all. May our Friendship last forever... Wai Yip, Yee Meng, KarChu, Sook Fuan and Sye Fei.

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2008-01-28T03:40:00.000+08:00

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2008-01-25T19:08:00.000+08:00

the final exam is finally over. with 6 papers stretching in 3 weeks. Just after the exam ended, its time to say farewell for a bunch of good friends who are leaving for training. What i meant here is good friends and you know who you are out there. their 3 month out there will be guided with industrial supervisor and me here end up finishing my project under the grant of FELDA which was awarded to USM. It means a collaboration between USM FELDA and Materials Science Department in AIMST University. In the same time i get paid for doing my job and this is the fun part. You do your project, you get money in the same time. Initially this project was abandoned my others classmates as this may nt be the popular ones and considered to be out of scope. I even got myself humiliated by one of the blogger who happens to be my classmate as well for posting things regarding my days in my involvement here.

I guess, my blogging, i tried to give certain people some hint to them and for them to realize how actually people think of them. being a good fella always had been regarded as the bad person as nothing that is good is nice or otherwise. well in the end, i decided to keep and let things be.. and eventually, the more screw up their life. again only complicated people thinks and takes things to be complicated. i always prefer a long and winding road than a straight road. this makes me learn more and through out the year, i had learned alot, human being wise. i am certainly not like some people who need assistance even to complete their own homework. well that is cheap and unethical. I was told that if someone doesn't help, no one is going to help and sure 'Kantoi" and the project will be left unattended. god is going to help those who help themselves, i am very particular in this as you are such an asshole parasiting other's resources to gain wealth for your own sake.. go fug yourself better still...

in the end, i realize that die hard attitude never change. No matter how you cover, it still shows. it is a finger print and i too had my own finger print. wat u call it politician finger print and i never want to be want. perhaps i make my fingerprint shine as i am being myself. not the me last time who is unfriendly and chossy. the rule is simple, you be nice to be i will be extra nice to you. other wise applies.. so you know what i mean... hehhehehe..

more updates to come on the screw up projects..

2008-01-06T03:02:00.000+08:00

some may think that some other's actions is lame and excusable. Just a day after the new year, our country has already got the story of the year. Well scandals are meant to be jeopardizing someone's image and reputations. In my point of view, i think our Health Minister shall be judged and credited based on his work in the ministry not by how many woman that he be with. Does the development of the nation needs his accountability in scandals or his work?

Let don talk about this because majority of the office holders in the world are useless person. Sit there shake leg and do nothing. Go back and sleep eat and perhaps wait to die for some who are seriously ill and still reluctant to let go the office. If you see nowadays, the high rank position are filled by idiots and not brilliant and intellectually promising and intelligent bearers.

Just only, at about 2am, one of my ex classmate who is now a reporter in one of the local dailies sent me a excerpt of this Chu Mei Fung interview. Having her to speak in Mandarin and English, i find her life in politic to be less interesting as i remember her saying " I care for others more than myself, always try to help others and put others before myself", well this phase make me realize that sometimes i, myself have to make sure that i am happy before others do. I am not trying to say that i am being selfish but that is the fact, even before this, i care on how others feel especially this year, before i write, post or even do something. There is a life after the final episode.

To think of that, i am being very stupid by neglecting my needs to please other which i think they or the particular person does not know to learn to appreciate. So its time to end this and get back myself to do the things i want. It is a time wasting moment as i am waiting for nothing. waiting for miracle to happen seems far away as i am not a born angel or saint. A pure and sinful human being like me must learn to appreciate thing that is tangible, for instance, a nice person that in just in front of you, nice and good friends, good enemies ( they make you check yourself ), thanks to my housemate + classmate ( you know who) and so on.

This time is different
And it’s all because of you
It’s better than it’s ever been
‘Cause we can talk it though

This is it, oh I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one

‘Cause whatever I do
It’s just got to be you

Did I keep you waiting? I didn’t mind
I apologize, baby that’s fine
I would wait forever just to know you were mine

You know I love your hair
Are you sure it looks right?
I love what you wear
Isn’t it too tight?
You’re exceptional
I can’t wait for the rest of my life

2008-01-05T21:46:00.000+08:00

U knw what.. my blog got hacked. GOD DaMMIt...
Celaka people... LEt me screw up your site first...

Done....

What the hell. Such a beautiful blog with simple and not very interesting content become the target.. I knew who is the one behind this and you are trying to be funny with me this new year huh... well well this is Cxxx Yxxx Yxxx Ok... don mess with me..

Final is on Monday and I only cant be focus today. I just dunno why la.. Feel very bored and tired like that.

Help me.......

2008-01-03T12:15:00.001+08:00

Exam is coming and i am so into my new year mood.. Goshh...
Study Study Study..........

2008-01-02T18:38:00.000+08:00

Happy new year to all...

Right after the new year celebration, i was sick the next day and no no no, this is no good at all. So the celebration of the New Year this year can say the most happening one after all. With spending little money and having enormous fun and feeling great in the same time, it is very very worth after all.

The journey started at 8pm and before that my car broke down due to battery problem. Getting it fixed few days later as today i try to start it was all fine.. So just need to take the battery to charge it again and it will be on the move again. 8.30pm we reached Chai Leng Park for our dinner together in the car is Rowen, Zhi Li, Chong Hui and myself. From there we meet up with Jimmy and Hui and we went to Autocity for a walk.

Reaching there take all the pain in the ass as the traffic is very heavy. Angeline was there waiting and she met up with her ex if i am not mistaken leaving her being in the state of delirium until 5am. The crowd was huge there with Amy Search performing and many others. Soon we reached the lantern festival site and took some pictures and Chong Hui's mom called and we head to our final stop of the night for countdown, The Freshway Bistro.

This is a club and we went clubbing and some of them are first timer looked so so so nervous ler...Haiya... Must be steady la. And i gave my New Year countdown in the club, having some beer and X.O and i have to say here, my friend's mom look so hot and even those gal who came with us felt the same thing. The other side of the bar is, there are lots of AKUA" working as a waiter there and some man without hesitation grab and hug them.. Maybe they are just too drunk to realise that they are actually hugging a man.. Oh my god........

We came out from there at 2 am and reached SP by 3. It was a slow drive as we all don wanna get caught for speeding. We had our final stop in Nasi Kandar Pelita to have a Milo to ensure all the alcoholic effect being flushed away to avoid being detected if let say, we hit a roadblock and they require us to blow the device. Eventually all went well and i reached Chong Hui house to take my precious motorcycle and headed home.

This is a good memory as we students from IT, Business, Pharmacy and not yet to mention Materials Technology came out and club together.. Walaoooooooooehhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... Fun Fun..........hahahahah

2007-12-31T16:32:00.000+08:00

some small review from 2007

practically this year i had kinda loads of shitloads. there are more unhappy things more than happy things. From breaking up to friends gettng married, not to mention obituaries and anniversaries that eventually make the heart and soul cracked and parted into few little small pieces

2007 is a year of betrayal for me where true colours can been seens just by my naked eye. this almost blows my entire groups of friends away. Not to mention friends being jealous on achievement that you attain, be close with you just to get some credit and finally make use and flung the friendship in the end leaving you a road of darkness and alot of shitload to bear, not enought behind tarnishing your good name so people see it in a bad way not a good one..

Recently there is a friends comes to tell me that my bike sounded very loud and so is my car. just imagine the car is 23 years old by 2008( still going 130 -140 km/h) on a highway is not a problem and the bike is 10 years by the next chinese new year. What do you expect as for sure it will be loud la.. The complain sounded like this " Hey, i heard that your car exhaust irritated some people la.. Got someone complained in the class and i kinda knew who was that and i kept it silence. I am wondering when this people going to stop humiliating people as for me it's a taboo and a matter out of topic to talk about this person.. Time wasting and saliva + energy drenching session to put your brain saps into working in this matter.

in fact i am damn proud of what i had now.old but functioning and most imp.. own money own effort and enable to be independent and need not to be dependent. in fact i am proud to be myself. i am not going to lose it anymore. i don need to live to rules that you set and what you don like this and that.. acceptance is thousands of mile away if so..

2008 is coming.. let all the bygone be the bygone.. i have left all the bad one in a bag called 2007 sewage pack and dump it all away, far far away from my mind here in myself. Instead i took all the good one and pack into Goodwill and Future Bright Parcel to be delivered to my doorstep right after i came back from my countdown party tonight.. So once i entered my house here in Bandar Laguna Merbok, i will be blessed with only good things and kept distances away from bad ones...

! ! ! ! . . . . HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL . . . ! ! ! ! !

Jan 2007

Final Exam and haizzz... get OKOK result only la..

Feb 2007

No comment here... apart from Chinese New Year

March 2007

My birthday, lonely one and went home for the first time after 2 years.. (The house in Pahang )

April 2007

Industrial trainng peak season here. attended conference, exhibition and even went to KL..

May 2007

Sem just started.. Nothing much just pathetic and busy

June 2007

Dad'sBirthday, marking one more year to retirement..

July 2007

Exam month... damn busy and later Kl trip again.. Nothing mch here apart being busy..

August 2007

Final Exam here... one month without a life but a LIFE.......

September 2007

Holidays and in the end of the month... Final year begins, and life with a psycho in class also begins... it kills and yet its kinda fun..

October 2007

Shifted to the new campus and the air conditioning is very very very very cold..

November 2007

Presentation, Assigment, Test and Midterm month... It kill and yet i enjoy the fun being busy here

December 2007

Went to USM for a visit.. well well its ok la and i am so blessed i am in AIMST...
Seminar test and presentation...
3 friends got married this month and i only attended one...
A fren open a shop in Lagenda Heights, Sungai Petani, and attended right away when i came back from KL last nite.
Today is the last day of 2007, going to Butterworth for countdown session with Chong Hui, Zhi LI , Rowen and few more.

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL..........

Have a prosperous and a joyous new year.

2007-12-26T01:03:00.000+08:00

when come to think of it there are so few, so few truth in this world nowadays. Men and women are just merely players in the world's stage. since we are the player, how can we ourself expect things to be true and virgin whereby the world is not so.

i love to study, the class atmosphere and the time spent hanging out with friends. but how long this is going to last. at this point of time, i am not feeling lost but being alone sometimes make you think the reason your existence in this world. it can be good and it can be otherwise. being a good person will always be bullied by the one who takes advantages. to be a bad one, i am not up to that level yet.
in the end, to be mean on what you does seems to be the best solution of all. don you think so.. do go back and do some thinking.. deep shit thinking... with this.. tomorrow is my metals and alloys paper. i read through everything and everything seems to fly everywhere.. i only can make it through this time.. no more the pathetic raychin 10 months and 4 days back.... next year christmas will be totally different. " silent night"

2007-12-25T17:16:00.000+08:00

Christmas day, well it means something if there is someone who is celebrating with you, girl friend, boy friends or even a bachelor party for those who are still single and pretty much available. That is what took place in my friends house in his japanese and chinese + korean architecture garden back in taman ria jaya. there i think is the first gathering after we know each other together with his cousin and friends around.

at about 11pm or so, there is a band that came to the house where christmas song was sang and the song "silent night" which is being played in this blog right now gave me a real deep impression and make me feel the calm and peaceful atmosphere under a full moon. If u guys notice, there was a full moon last night, prefect for couples who wished to spend the night romantically. Frankly, i am not very good being romantic. well just that i am not good, i am nt born with it and most gal will find me boring which is not very good thing to me.

the party lasted for hours of chatting and talking and joking as well. Everything ended at 3 am and we were caught in a jam stretched about 500 metres caused by the roadblock by the police near village mall.

.....................

i am happy with this year's celebration which is more simple and decent compared to last year. both gave me a good time and great and sweet memories.

2007-12-24T15:40:00.000+08:00

this year christmas, well only can stayback in sp as there are tests and project to do. Compare to last year, celebration which took place in Penang, it will be a lil different whereby, there will be no jam and crowd instead there are invitations to an Open house hosted by one of my Marketing class' buddy who happen to reside in Cinta Sayang and later to either sense or lioz to countdown.

in the mean time, i start to get use to the life i have now. things that passes can be distracted by the schedule i had. i may look a lil busier compared to my classmates as my things will due end of jan which means i need to complete by december. tiring.

....................

2007-12-20T10:40:00.000+08:00

Reading the news subheadlines today, make me think and there is a more concrete reason to not ahere totally to the current administrations. Reason? well those people will act when they got chased by problems. If the country is at a peace and harmony, no natural disasters where the mother nature is not making noise, nagging and asking for lifes to be sacrificed, these idiots will not sprang out into action and took preventive and measurable actions.

reading the new make me wonder, if let say i am the minister incharge, i believe my back will be more terribly injured by backstabbers that constantly whacks and kicks as long as they think they rocks.

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2007/12/20/nation/20071220074256&sec=nation&focus=1

2007-12-20T01:43:00.000+08:00

well i just screwed up my contact list, the links i mean... so don try do anything funny on the code registry..
trying hard to recover those..

shit.. not enough being harassed earlier the day, now my dell got harassed again...

I am gonna sue u...

2007-12-20T01:09:00.000+08:00

A problem can be caused by many supporting factors. I used to avoid and neglects problems which cause my quarter life crisis to haunt me. regret much but cant do anything now. lately, i have been a happier person perhaps i start to open up myself to accept the interactions among friends and stop pretending to be a macho man instead be myself, which is noisy, crappy and maybe... i say maybe.. interesting.
some out there may not agree on what i say here, but if this is from my heart, unless i am being dishonest, it cant be fake. In the midst of having a happy week, somehow there will be some things that make ur life miserable. for instance, today i am late for the marketing class and me as many ppl knew me in the class teases me and making fun of the package that i brought along. well to extract things from the medical lab takes me almost a century as the dean of the school was there and he ask many things on my project that i am doing now. and make me late and knowing that, i ask tan sri to help me to carry my small cute digi back to the class.

reaching the class when tips is given, i notice that i have no place to sit.. and once i got a place to sit i don have assistance to copy the tips hence therefore i am sitting in the wrong place n yet i shifted to the back. of cos i complained saying that i sat at the wrong place la but some people just took it differently.

in the end of the class, i full range and dramatic and yet, year end chaos begun with someone coming to see me and bang me with words. to my surprise i tot she is angry of me asking her friend to carry my sample to amanjaya but later i found out that she misunderstood my words. if it so i must had offended many people out there and they will be cursing me instead but in the class, me asking questions seems to become a joke to the class and when i kena from lecturer, as part of life, take it or leave it.

some physical contact were involved when i have my samples in my hand. i am so worry that this will damage the sample as in it, not only belongs to us but also some of the controls are belongs to the research team from USM. if anythng happens am i going to say that a gal pushed me and these got fallen apart and broken. definitely my just built reputation will be gone . as in forever.

what i learn from this is, what ever is it, find out the root cause of the problem. once then, admit what u committed. that how me with my coursemate got into a peace and become friends again when we are having such a long misunderstanding since year 1. it is not that i am influencing them to ignore anyone. most of them have a brilliant brains and they are far more capable to think than a latest intel microchips. it is a shame to those friends by saying that they got influenced by myself. ask him and see. in return i don get anything good back. my transport mode as in my car and bike is eaten up and aged.

they are not like the new benz or bmw that overtook u quietly.
pls understand that when things gets old, it tends to make more noise. i am looking forward to get a new bike or car, if anyone s willing to sponsor me. all this also some want to complain and make an issue out of it. when i hear it, in my heart i was thinking, wat the hell is going on. i myself have not got annoyed using it daily, who are you to complain and make comments. well thats it.

n yea, my english is some how like a chinaman english. from my reading i tend to follow some style of writing n i don intend to be or wanna be like one who acts writing professionally. I dont, so i just write based on what i think. It is truly a compliment if there's a comment on me writing based on imitating a style that is not mine and i want to thank tht person in advance.

hahaa

2007-12-18T17:41:00.001+08:00

Composite kills me, ten marks perhaps i only can get half hopefully. I made a mistake of not memorizing it good enough for me to get a good result. Damn. Metals and Alloys coming next and i will have to prepare some solution and time managements periods to study about the subject, not tiring instead i now find exam very very very challenging. I must be crazy already and i am not sure why i am like this now.

A friend says, that i changed alot. Change in what? I am still so short, which turns most gals away from me, i still crap alot in class also, my mood is very good when i am in the university unless someone pisses me, i still like to do things fast as i want to get quick results and i still love coffee alot. what i had changed then...

changed as in i am a single young man nw. thats the only changes. i still does thing the way i does as per my jurisdiction i did not make anyone unhappy ( i try to). sometimes tricks are a part of life where it add more color and i only get this in the uni life of mine. when come to think of it, i kinda miss those who are leaving for training and glad that someone is leaving. at least for a while.

what is happening now cant be turned back and what is passes is passed. how glad i would be if i am this way before and disasters and tragedy will not happen on me..... haizzzzzzz

RM 3000, survivng in Malaysia..

2007-12-14T15:55:00.000+08:00

Can a family man with Salary RM3,000 survive in Malaysia?

Let's do some simple calculations here.
In Malaysia , the average family income is RM3,000 /month
(where father works, mother doesn't).
I understand there are many families whose
monthly income does not reach RM3,000,
but, to make things simple,
let's take RM3,000 as the figure. Ok lah, right?

Okay, let's start rolling with a family which has
Papa, Mama, 1 daughter and 1 son. Ngam-ngam ....

Calculation starts...

Electricity and water bill: RM100
(No air-con, No home theatre, No water heater ... ok?)

Phone bill ( Telekom): RM100
Meals for a happy family: RM775
(3 meals on RM25/day, RM25 for 4 persons...?)

Papa makan / teh-tarik during working hrs: RM155
(RM5/day, RM5 ... can eat what?)

Car repayment: RM400
(A proton saga aeroback, 7 yrs repayment)

Petrol (living in city, traffic-jam): RM300
(go to work, bring son to school, only can afford one car running)

Insurance: RM650
(kids, wife and myself)

House repayment: RM750
(low cost housing repayment for 30 yrs,
retired still have to work to pay!)

Tuition: RM80
(got that cheap meh? i don't think so)

Older children pocket money @ school: RM20
(RM1/day, eat bread?)

School fees: RM30
(enough ah?)

School books and etc: RM100
(always got extra to pay in school)

Younger children milk powder: RM50
(cannot have the DHA, BHA, PHA one, expensive)

Miscellaneous: RM100
(shampoo, rice, sauce, toilet paper)

Oh wait!!! I have to stop here, so...
No Astro,
no movie @ cinema,
no DVD,
no CD,
no online,
cannot KFC,
cannot McDonald,
cannot go Park walk during weekend (petrol expensive),
no chit chat on phone with grandparents, and etc...

Let's use a calculator to total up... WALAO EH! Shit! RM3,610 already...

EPF belum potong, income tax lagi........oledi RM3,610 ...

How to survive lah tuan-tuan dan puan-puan sekalian ???

Our Deputy Prime Minister asked us to change lifestyle?

How to change? Don't eat? Don't work? Don't send children to school and study?

Besides that, I believe in Malaysia population, there are millions of rakyat Malaysia which still don't earn RM3,000/month!!!

What is this? Inilah Malaysia Boleh... Sorry... it should be Malaysians Boleh , because we're still alive and kicking!!

Our politicians must be mad!!!!

No wonder so many Ah Loong around..

2007-12-14T11:00:00.000+08:00

This is a very good morning to sleep and after sending my desktop back to home. My room seems to b brighter and neater. The same time, the desktop carry dust as it traps dusts around. And my final year project, there are 2 more compounds to be detected which is lycopin and tocopherol betha.

I actually decided to finish it up today but i am feeling extremely tired and my body was aching when i woke up. Perhaps this is due to the struggle to complete the assignment which makes me to stay up to 4am for a few days in a row. talking bout the assignment, there is a group member, what ever u call it went to thailand when the submission date was at the bottleneck stage. I don think this is the right attitude as assignment shall be done within the same effort and not some does more that others. Marks will not be blessed this way. Sitting at home doing nothing will just make other ppl say things but as the group leader, of course, ... and i also dunno hw say.

There is a more interesting facts that i acknowledge myself. Well well, i had been quite isolated when i just broke up. Thanks to 2 of my good friends who happen to be a special of a kind that helps me to recover. I lose friends as some of my friends do not know where to stand and some just leave like that. Those are not friends but assholes, you agree? what are friend for when they stand and laugh at you when you have trouble.

Those who make shit to stick on themselves shall not blame others for what happen to them la... This is because what you does reflects greatly on who you are. Just don associate others for what happen to yourself. Hard work pays. Laziness kills..

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2007-12-01T18:30:00.000+08:00

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2007-11-26T12:19:00.000+08:00

If you does something that makes people to get pissed off and get angry with. then you are entitled and should be getting some handshake and as well as some people talking bad about you. Of course this applies to me as well. And i accepted it as a part of the norm as we are all human being.

This came across when someone over the msn ask me whether i had talk bad about him and what does i felt. Well as the tenure of being someone who holds some post, these we can't run away. A leader sometimes potentially creates some atmosphere where people are getting or nt gettng along with you. This guy also ask me what does i felt when people talk bad about me. And my answer to him is I am getting used to it and i don think i need to care what others says. There more u care the more you are hurting yourself. Just be what you are and don fake it when the are potential entrant coming on your way.

Occcasionally people do gossip and yeah, shit does happens

2007-11-25T18:10:00.000+08:00

Today is the day where one of my Lecturer is getting married. Dr Joseph, oh ya is getting married to a bride from Seremban and what make the sad part is, I am not able to attend the wedding though i wanted to go and i am one of the loudest to yell that i wanted to go. In the same time, i can meet up my dad as well and pass him the computer which i have now. Or shall i say i don need this computer at the moment as there are plenty of these in the campus and i can always use that if i needed.

this afternoon is the end of the 2 days workshop and those who do not attend today do not get or entitled for a certificate. At first, i was thinking that this workshop is a rubbish out of all just because the Chairman's wife is here we all have to attend and what turn out is to be totally opposite and i have to say that i gained more than i lose attending the second day seminar. Is not that by sacrificing things that you like such as sleep make you lose all, but this workshop really does help alot in preparing myself to enter the society which will happen in this near future.

There is one things that Mrs Ampi mention bout the boys and gals relationship. If one loses another, there are still plenty of fish out there to catch. One don make a difference if one's decided to give up another which i find it very very true. In the matter of fact, i really do meet alot of new one's and better one's after the disaster' that hits me on my dear friend's birthday. Life still goes on and i am now thinking of venturing something new which i am still working on and still being kept in my thinking box.

Being persuasive is not good when you are not able to persuade. So i don bother trying anymore as i think i had my patience limit as well. What does you feel when you are being scolded more than you talk. We are human being also, and we does have feelings. Of course what we say will not be able to take back again. Talking nicely will not make you to be in a less advantageous state in fact you can salvage the friendship and the relationship. But now i think is too late for all as after today, i will stop being so stupid just to go with the flow. NO MORE. cos my mistake here is not to retaliate when people come and step on me as the policy i had is less trouble are better but from now on, those people are going to pay for what they does. I believe this is one of the way to protect ourselves as well.

Enough of all these craps. I better get myself ready for dinner. As they saying goes, " Shit Happens" which is damn true.